Being Ready!

Hey guys!
Thought I'd take a break from studying, and post something small.So basically I realised how ready we have to be for god's little challenges.To be more specific,I'll give you an example =)
So I was at Y4J last saturday...and basically half way through worship they started to sing Indescribable (Chris Tomlin) !I had a very good friend of mine who used to attend these meetings, and we used to love this song and would just sing it together all the time!So at that moment I said: "God,what do I do to get him/her back to you?" and I felt that i should message this friend and let him/her know...so I said sumting like : "Hey,we're singing Indescribable at the moment!Remember our favourite song?!So I thought of you,and wanted to let you know that God knows u and loves you cos he placed u in this world..love you x x x x "
And this person messaged back asking why i thought of him/her..insomma d messaging went on.But what I wanted to say was..I asked God what HE wants me to do, He answered me..and I did it!Ok it might not always be so easy...but it's possible!From the tiniest most stupid decision to the most important decision in your life,ask God what HE wants you to do...not what you want to do!
Gna type something from my bible:
Martin Luther once said, "I've got so much work to do today, I'd better spend two hours in prayer instead of one." Got tons of homework? Feel overwhelmed and rushed? Maybe the best way to get everything done is to stop and pray. Nehemiah was a man of action.He became governor of Judah and quickly got everyone to work building the walls of Jerusalem.But the first thing Nehemiah did "for some days" was to mourn and fast and pray: Nehemiah 1:4. If you're going to get any job done well,you need God's help.The time you take to pray before you act isn't wasted.It's the most important time of all.
So basically just pray before you do something,no matter how stupid it might sound to you...God will appreciate it =) Going to leave you with the song indescribable..rly cute video and another song of Desperation Band called Ready Now, that I also fell in love with...the words r gorgeous!=D x x x Enjoy!God bless you all!
p.s: For the second song, especially...just relax close your eyes and really pray the song..amazing xD

My last day at school!

That's 1996 ok guys? =) hehe
So basically I had rag day today!And I still can't believe it's all over!So basically we all met in Sliema at half 7ish,and some of my friends went to buy alcohol while I gladly stuck to nutella and Diet coke xD hehe.Insomma then we went on the beach and posed and laughed...till about 9.Went to school and prepared for our lovely, awaited rag day!We all had the t-shirts on, and our funny costumes for our dances!I was Ginger Spice! =P And we all bonded maa on the last day, then did our thing, in front of the whole school, read the poem, some of us cried, some of us laughed.Played Prisoners against the teachers, and Our headmistress joined in. Really funny game!Did our line dance....cried...hugged...said bye to some teachers...mr.camilleri made me cry,but i kept it in till after he left xD cos im cool xD haha...Then we got a cute speech from our assistant head...and we made our way to avenue!When we finally got there the place was empty, so avenue was ours =P except for the waiters anyway hehe so the music was full on and we really enjoyed ourselves...ate..had our breaks outside haha..then went on the rocky beach and laughed our asses off!I got really close to friends I probably won't be seeing at all...which kinda sucks!We should really start to appreciate things before they're too late...I mean I really cried today...and hekk maa I'm gna miss my girls loads!We've been 2geder for 12 years!Such a small school,so we were like a small family!Tomorrow we have our mass,then we're going out together!So basically I wanted to tell you about my emotional but exciting day guys =)
Thanks everyone of you...for making me smile when I was down, and piss in my pants when it was really un-expected..thanks for foaming me (yes they foamed me) and thanks for being just you, because I am who i am today cause of you!!! Love you all xXx

One of my comparisons =)

Hey guys!
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but as some of you know, I have O'levels this month, so I'm a bit tight with time!But I have made time for a blog tonight!hehe
So basically today, after school my mum stopped at greens and asked the butcher for left over ham/meats and she bought two cans of dog food.When I saw her coming towards the car, i was like HUH? we don't have any pets at home xD hehe!But I soon found out we were off to the dog sanctuary in Pembroke!And insomma we went,and there was the guy who takes care of them, and he was telling us about how mepa doesn't want him to keep this place,and like basically these dogs are all abandoned dogs,found in the streets,and he just built a couple of rooms near the sea, and a gate round.And they're threatening him and stuff!And this guy was there, cleaning up all their shit, feeding them, its all voluntary work and he has two of these made shelters in Malta...and he seemed really upset and worried!So I was thinking...just imagine we were the dogs instead, and Gods' taking care of us, not getting anything in return but shit really..so its all out of love!and like there are people,things, and mostly satan trying to ruin things,trying to break down the shelter so we won't be protected anymore...and God (the guy) keeps on fighting with all he can just to keep us safe, and He's not going to give up on us, cos He loves us OK? =D No matter what we do, no matter what we say, He's going to want to clean us,feed us and keep us safe!So as encouragement guys,when you feel tempted,or when you know you're going to do something wrong...turn direction,don't face the gate, face god...walk towards the closed room with food, not the cold,rusty gate!I know its hard, TRUST ME!I'm telling you this, cos i fell for temptation last weekend!And I'm trying to turn my direction...we can do it guys! Praying for all of you!if sum1 needs a chat or sumting, let me know!
God Bless XxX

Short update!

Hey!

Ahh so much has been going on! It's pretty crazy! Decisions..bad moods,good moods, confusion, loss of love, consciousness, boyfriends..or shall I say loss of boyfriends hehe, future, studying, boredom,worrying, smiling,temptations, I think you get the picture insomma...but I must say, through all these emotions/thoughts there are some people, who I just long to meet cause of the way they cheer me up, or know just what to say!You know who you are =) Well the hike on Wednesday, was great...funny game xD really enjoyed it!Some funny photos, which are uploaded on my facebook profile ok? My new ambition search, is getting more confusing than I thought it would, but it's cool =D I dont have anything to say today, just to remind you that God loves you soo much! teehee..

Thanks for being there for me....rly appreciate it =D mwaa xxxx

New ambitions?

Ahh guys...today I spent a day analysing my life, and where my life's going....and yes I've become a bit paranoid, but I have come up with two new ambitions!

Ambition 1) To find the real me!
Who Am I? Like seriously, how well do I know myself? Do I trust myself? Should I trust myself? How well do I know my weaknesses? How well do i know my positive aspects? Where do I stand with people, family, friends, best friends, and most importantly, God? Who am I becoming? Am I changing? Am I going the right direction? Do I truly love myself? Who do I look up to? What genre of music do I like? What are my fears?

Questions I've been asking myself all day...they got me thinking, a lot! And my conclusion, I hardly know myself!!!! All I know is that I'm a perfectionist, i hate being indecisive, I like to be organised, I'm scared of losing someone I love, I'm scared of ending up alone, I'm following God, I like to adapt myself with different people, I'm sensitive, and that I'm scared of the dark and cockroaches. There could be a couple of more things...but not really important!

Ambition 2) To Accept my Imperfections!!!!
I mentioned that I'm quite a perfectionist before, and well, lately more than ever.I'm even getting emotionally unstable about them.Even the slightest imperfection,even though I KNOW and agree that no ones perfect, let alone me, it's just everything I do, everything I am, I want it to be good,I want it to be accepted, I want God to like it, I want my family to agree, and I want my friends to like it too. If I do something ,I want to do it well. And if something doesn't go well, I feel really guilty, and beat myself up over it!Even the slightest tiniest, most minute situation!From reading in mass to my figure. Yes, I know, you're probably all saying. "huh?" she has a totally imperfect figure, and such an imperfect relationship with God. And no one's perfect, as I said before, but some more than others, I'm not top rated, but I'm trying okay? I actually opened up bout this fully with a best friend of mine...for the first time today xD I'm honestly a perfectionist at heart,I try not to show my disappointment so much usually...
Anyway I think I'll stop here...sorry if I bored you,but I felt I should blog it!
God Bless You All, and you're all free to comment and criticise=P
P.S: This is d best video I found of this song,the words are the best, Stellar Kart- Finish Last =) Enjoy!

Jesus' Face!! Be amazed!

Sorry?

So as most of you know, today we all watched the Passion of the Christ at Y4J. And the funny thing is, that I kept learning something new from various scenes. For example something that might be really obvious for some of you, and others not so obvious. You know how in the bible it says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, and so I'm usually caught thinking about this beautiful-or-not thing, and I usually convince myself that God thinks im beautiful...but just God.But in the film, when Jesus told Pilate these words: "Whoever hears the truth, hears my voice."
I was like wait!So not only does God think we're all beautiful/handsome but it's true!I mean seriously, whoever you are, you are beautiful or handsome! Yes YOU!! =D *Feel special =) *
Anyway,coming to the title of this post: "Sorry?" Yes guys, that's a confused sorry!Well every time I saw them whip Jesus, and also in the scene where he was crucified, i kept saying "im so sorry, im so sorry" and i dont know why!I dont even know if its a good or a bad thing!Every bad thing that I've done, was just coming to mind,and i kept feeling bad!I mean he died for me, he suffered so much!and how am i paying him back?by sinning?!Even though that was the reason of his death....but hekk im a bit confused atm!
We just saw the face of GOD ta guys! There was the replica of the shroud, brought from St.Patricks...and were we all amazed or not!I sure was =D
Anyway so today I wrote something...its nothing much, but it basically shows what im feeling! Enjoy...and I'd like to thank some of you for being simply amazing!!! May God Bless you all!!!! =D

My Hero =)
Your love for me, so brilliant Lord,
I can now see, your grace shine through me,
Your son, he has paid
For my sorrow to fade away.
And through the tears and the troubles,
I can now truly say,I am okay!

Nothing compares to you,Lord.
Nothing compares to the love you have for us,
You will never leave me, alone,unloved and ignored.

And now I'm smiling through my day,
And I can honestly say,
This smile's for you, my King!
It's one of those, that shines, just for You!

And if it decides to disappear,
I'll remember, that I'm so beautiful to you,
Made with thought and love, so true!
And a place in my heart for you to make new!

You are my special Hero,
and I am so in love with You!