Time to settle down :)

hey guys

sorry for the really maybe, too honest post,but i needed to get it off my chest..
hope you're all okay,and that life is treating you well! I think slowly I'm realising things,life is becoming clear slowly, and it's great...I still have loads to disagree with,but it's no point,it's not going to get me anywhere :)

So today, during my never ending frees, I realised that as amazing and complex as the brain is, its evil.It can cause self-destruction,it's the one part of the body that can cause self-destruction and be blamed: "Dont worry,its all in the brain" It's funny, our brain can cause us to total madness one day..sort of like back stab us...haha moving on!!

School isn't getting easier or anything, and sometimes some people can really bring us down and make it harder to cope, but you know what I'm keeping in mind? A phrase I heard in a film;
No one gets to decide how I feel...

And it's true, and I'm trying to adapt that phrase,and make it my logo or whatever..you should try it!

I'm off to england in 18 days, and I am way too excited!Leaving Malta for a week, you know how good that sounds at the moment? :) Everyone needs their time off...this is mine!

Sorry this post wasn't one of support or encouragment..just my update,and thoughts of the week.
Just a few photos that were taken throughout a great afternoon in Mdina :)

a much needed update!

hey guys

illa its been ages since ive blogged,so much has happened and stayed the same!

As people grow,they think, discuss, observe,think twice and have to decide under pressure...
I'm growing, not cause its my bday soon, but you know if ure growing inside..you just know..and well I know im growing,cos im thinking,observing and deciding for myself and not letting others decide for me. We tend to do that as people,we tend to rely on others too much,we tend to be scared of our choice,well we shouldn't, im not, im doing this my way.

Am I confusing you?

anyway, im living for me and not for anyone else, because what i do is my choice, and I'm sick of others trying to be a parent when they're not, especially if they're my age..they think they're so grown up and better than the rest..well they're not, because we're all the same, whether ure on the youth team or on admin, or just a member of y4j, or someone who doesnt go to y4j, to the extent of someone who's an athiest...we are all the same so i would just wish if everyone could get off their high horse and shut up!The looks, the 'it seems like u need prayers', they're absolute crap...we all need prayers and you dont go telling someone you think they need prayers,cos its rude...I mean what, and you dont?

so right, i need my space, i need a break, but no one has any right to think my relationship with god is going down or something happened to me, i mean what the hell? if i needed help i would ask for it, so whoever is reading this, no offence, just know that even if u raise your hands in praise, and u might not smoke,or have sex, there are individuals out there who are better than all of us put together, so its not a competition..and if it is for you, sorry to burst your bubble,
but the game is over...

this was totally in general,so dont go round saying "im sure she meant that for me"...
anyway, god bless you all, and gws vicky xxxxx