Inspired!

Hey Guys!
So I'm gna start off by thanking Achie, for being the most honest blogger, even though you blogged about your hurts and confusion, it made me think..good-thinking-kinda-thing.Yes Ach through your words of hurt, you inspired me to deepen my search to find me...the real me. Just like Fr.Ray Toledo asked us: Who Am I? And this reminded me of when I still learnt italian at school, and an essay was set,and I remember we had to write bout ourselves. And literally i was in my room,with the paper still blank,tears rolling down my cheek, cause i had no idea what to write, i had no idea who i was, nd i still dont!Someone might say, but you've been going to Y4J for two years,what nothing's changed? Oh a lot has changed,but I'm going to be honest, I only fully gave everything up in january!Nope, your eyes aren't gng mad,only last month did I offer up everything.But I'm going to continue sharing my honest mood with you guys and let you know, that no, it wasn't easy,and still isn't. Not to discourage you, more as to let you know, dat no, God doesnt take away your troubles just cos u gave your life to him,and no, the imaginary wall doesn't just appear to keep satan away, i actually think that satan has found a way through that wall,way up the mountain...in other words, he's a meany!And as to confess,in my last post i mentioned that my troubles have not affected my attitude towards people, I have actually partly failed!Not that I'm not there for people, or I don't smile to anyone, anzi...but im giving off weird vibes, like really weird.And it really hurts me to know I cant be me,because I simply dont know where or who me is.No sorry guys, im not even half way there =P And truely and honestly, I'm on the edge of a cliff, but holding on like nothing before. One might ask why, and then I ask myself why?Well besides the fact that I want to hold on to God with all I've got, i have no idea why im holding on to anything else, is it even necessary to hold on to anything else?All rhetorical questions dont worry =) I really wanna appologise to this guy haha...well he knows who he is, and he knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life, well I haven't been the best friend I'm supposed to be towards him, and so I want you to know, that im really sorry,and will try harder! And to think that one smile can cover up a milion tears, wow...I mean, nothing's going to stop me from smiling, cause im a smiley person with a very loud, annoying laugh (found out today) but when theres a time to show my hurts, I'm going to show my hurts!Today Sara and I walked to Tutzi from PV bus stop, and wow was that a walk!Through Regional road at 7 in the morning, I felt a sudden sample of my everyday life,struggling through everyting, just because the bus routine started an hour after we wer supposed to meet tutzi,but knowing that soon enough we'll arrive, gave us a sense of encouragment,in other words, aiming for something, is better than just being a leaf in the wind, aim for something big and high, way over your capabilities,because through God, there's no limit.

I think I'll shutup now!Sorry for the long, but very honest post...

God Bless You All!!! (Btw sorry but poem will be delayed for a while)

Beautiful aye?I captured this photo on a stormy day in pembroke!Lovely!

Staying strong!

Hey flower pots =D
I'm sorry I haven't blogged in practically ages, but I've had a lot going on, and by that I mean, not good stuff. But hey I'm keeping my head high,my smile on and my words of faith going...because that's what being a Christian is all about no? Holding on to God's promises, and not going in one depression because something didn't go your way...I used to be like that, I used to isolate myself and just fake smile to everyone who didn't know what was really going on inside my head,but ever since the 12th of January,illalu even though things are going wacko xD It hasn't affected the way I treat others,cos i feel so new...God is truly amazing guys!And I really want to thank Vicky, who has stood by me through every thing!It feels like I've known her all my life,and I really want to thank God for her, and for other true friends,some also, best friends,you all know who you are =)
Anyway guys I want to encourage anyone that's stuck in a two-way road...where things also seem to be going a bit wacko hehe...to just close your eyes,alone in a room,and just ask God to take control over your life and extend your territory =) always here if someone needs to chat OK?
I have a poem to show you guys, if any one's still alive out there hehe...but I'll post it tomorrow!And guys I truly ask you as my brothers and sisters in Christ to keep me in your prayers please...I kinda need it...I don't wanna hide my bad times from you guys,cos if i hide them from you,then whats d point?Friends are supposed to sharpen each other!
Sorry if i bored you guys....God Bless you all!!! =) XxX

Eric Clapton sings this song, for his son who died cos he fell out of a window,I sung this for a show once,and ekk i thought of it haha its beautiful ah!

Slum Survivor and Y4J Lenten Talks

Aaa guys...lets let Malta know about both of these events...dont be shy, let all your contacts on msn know, GOD RULESSSSSSSS :D
God blessss yoouuuuu alllll xxxx

How far will we go?

So I was flipping channels yesterday, and Jerry was on (i usually hate that program) but it was about plastic surgery, and basically this woman went under the knife 46 times, there isn't something she didn't fix, and she was really beautiful ta!!! Insomma basically at like 30 or sumting she decided she wanted to be the perfect barbie. And she said:
"I didn't care about the cutting and the slicing and the pain and the blood and stitches,I just cared about how I would look in the end, how I look now."
And it clicked...*light bulb* hehe...why do we seem to give up with the first feeling of pain...why do we not have the same attitude? Issa im speaking in general, me included. The second we know ders gna be pain we give up, we dont get back up. We wudnt want to get hurt wud we? but who said dat its gna be easy? We are gna get cut and sliced and bruised...but in the end what will we get?
SALVATION!

So lets have the same attitude, but instead of having that materialistic need, lets have a need for God, a need for love and understanding, a need of a father and encouragment! How far will we go guys?Will we stop at our second "plastic surgery" or maybe the third?fourth?fifth? or will we keep going, even over those 46 brutal failures? Fine maybe we wont get that blonde hair,maybe we wont get rid of those pimples, maybe those cellulite just wont budge, that 6 pack your bstfriend keeps bragging about just never seem to POP out even after those 500 situps every night..and dat saggy stomach fat will just seem to never disappear...but we'll get sumting we desperately need,sumting u cant buy...Eternal Life with the one and only..GOD =)

I know this is long...and sorry but I have to mention something else, so then there was this guy who was amazed at this fake barbie doll's beauty, so he went under the knife himself to be another Barbie doll...yes he became a blonde woman...and so basically if we do evrything we can to reflect God's love for us to others, through our actions and words, then people will want what we have...people will point and say: Dont u think ders sumting mysterious bout dat girl?Dont u think dat guy has sumting different?

So I challenge you all..to go out there..with those knives nd pipes and injections coming at you, but to keep going until the time comes, when everything will be sooo worth it!!!!! God Bless =)
Praying for you all X

This Video Shows us that tere's someone to hold on to no matter what!This is my fave band...i love them!!!!!! =) Enjoy!!

Lenten Talks

Short post today...basically im rly sick, and i hv my chem mock on thurs nd i can hardly study with the random migraines.But Gods being faithful,as always,but im trying not to take His love for granted (one of my lent sacrifices)so evry little small thing is a big thing for me.Pls keep ppl in the mime and dance and viks poetry and the Y4J band and youth team and any1 helping in lenten talks in your prayers pls.Lenten talks r close!
They're running from the 25th Feb to the 1st March at 8-9 pm at the St.Julians Parish.Its rly worth coming guys!Im personally rly looking forward to dem. See you for now...also cud u pls keep me in your prayers,just a little one,not gng through the best time,but aa im praising God,cos He deserves all praise...
Keep praying, God Bless X
Take care all of you!dont ever give up!
*I would post a picture of the lenten talk poster,but its too big nd it came all green,so make it a point to come nd see it at the lenten talks xD And visit www.y4jmalta.com... new website 2moro what fun!*

A Thankful Day!

So guys today was the beginning of 3 weeks of mocks xD But i'm praising God for them..but I also got into a bit of trouble at school, quite worrying at first, but now I realised that it's ok!!! Its not like i purposely did something wrong, something just backfired!I've learnt something out of it and that's what's most important hux =) But Thanks for caring everyone,esp my trouble buddies; Vik,Sara nd Sof xD Ajma I got messages nd calls to see if evrytings ok..I felt really loved!but not as much as God loves me! anyone whose reading this just stop doing anything else and for a minute just TRY and imagine how much God loves you...just try!we hv nooo idea!HE LOVES US SOOO MUCH!Yes guys im in an I'm-in-love-with-jesus-mood...as always, but im hyper so it shows more =P Too bad no ones awake to be in love-with-Jesus-mood with me!hehe
So even though I had a rough afternoon,I got home nd just knelt down nd let everything out to my daddy King, and I praised Him for it!So praise guys...praise Him for your parents fighting atm, praise Him for the fight ure hving with your bestfriend,praise Him for the rumour you found out was gng round about you, for your nanna going to hospital, for your pet dying...just Praise Him cos He deserves alll praise!

Psalm 105:2 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.

Ok now the point of my blog today is to show you God's amazingness...ok so im a fan of beautiful views, im the kind of person dat just stares in delight at a sunrise or at a colourful sky or at an orange moon..im just amazed by God's perfect creation, and what brought this on today?My dads pictures! Enjoy =)


Gorgeous aye?!

Mela this is a video our school priest told us about in mass...turn your speakers on guys!its adorable!
God Bless XxX

Update =)

Hey guys!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but my computer broke down and I hate my sisters laptop but anyway now i have a lot to say =P

First of all,my dads back safe and sound! After a very hectic and delayed trip from Turkey! Thank you all for your prayers
and messages =D


So something connected to my dads trip, but also to everyones promises with God...so before my dad had left, i was realllly worried, and when I was praying God had promised me that he would bring my dad back safe and sound...nd so i was encouraged, but as the days passed and the forzi armati were involved in the situation and i had no idea where my dad was..i started to doubt whether He would keep His promise!But a close friend of mine gave me a random small piece of paper after the meeting on Sat which said: God Keeps His Promises. Now no one knew about my promise thing so when i read it, i started screaming hehe and what do you know...a few hours later, I was in my daddy's arms xD So praise the Lord :D

Just in case you can't read what's written; God Keeps His Promises...His Every Word is True.He Is Always Faithful, And He Loves You. =)

Next topic =P...
Achies Bday =)

So some of us went to Achie's on Friday (Thanks Ach) and we had a really good time, great company, amazing food..everything was just great...except for the van coming 45 minutes late =P So we ended up walking in Mellieha at midnightish,wondering if the van got lost xD So at one point we were waiting at a corner and I just randomly said: Lets pray! So we joined hands in one big circle and prayed!It was really cute guys, I wish we had a camera!I can just imagine God looking down nd smiling at us!Aww so then thank God, the van finally arrived and he kindly explained why he was late, and in a few minutes we were back at luxol =D Funny night!It was robs bday too...so happy belated birthday both of u =)

Blood xD
So last night i woke up thinking I had a runny nose and when I placed a tissue to my nose I realised it was blood =O I was half asleep and I couldn't understand what was happening!It was a nose bleed!A really random one xD And don't ask why, but when it continously kept bleeding I thought of Jesus bleeding...He first started bleeding when they beat him up, but it didn't stop there...it kept going...they whipped him and pushed him and put the crown of thorns on his head until they eventually crucified him..so basically the blood kept coming out!And even in a nose bleed I felt peace...even though it's NOTHING compared to what Jesus went through, I just thought of it as a wake up call..."AMY URE GNA KEEP BLEEDING FOR NOW DONT WORRY" So hekk i felt like everything was in conrol even if I had blood dripping...He knows what he's doing =) I'm really random aye xD So guys dont worry we're gonna keep bleeding for now, but then it's gna stop...and that's a promise from God :D You're going to have a safe landing in the end...it's all so worth it!



I have more to say, but I don't wanna bore you all with one post!hehe
God Bless You All xXx