New ambitions?

Ahh guys...today I spent a day analysing my life, and where my life's going....and yes I've become a bit paranoid, but I have come up with two new ambitions!

Ambition 1) To find the real me!
Who Am I? Like seriously, how well do I know myself? Do I trust myself? Should I trust myself? How well do I know my weaknesses? How well do i know my positive aspects? Where do I stand with people, family, friends, best friends, and most importantly, God? Who am I becoming? Am I changing? Am I going the right direction? Do I truly love myself? Who do I look up to? What genre of music do I like? What are my fears?

Questions I've been asking myself all day...they got me thinking, a lot! And my conclusion, I hardly know myself!!!! All I know is that I'm a perfectionist, i hate being indecisive, I like to be organised, I'm scared of losing someone I love, I'm scared of ending up alone, I'm following God, I like to adapt myself with different people, I'm sensitive, and that I'm scared of the dark and cockroaches. There could be a couple of more things...but not really important!

Ambition 2) To Accept my Imperfections!!!!
I mentioned that I'm quite a perfectionist before, and well, lately more than ever.I'm even getting emotionally unstable about them.Even the slightest imperfection,even though I KNOW and agree that no ones perfect, let alone me, it's just everything I do, everything I am, I want it to be good,I want it to be accepted, I want God to like it, I want my family to agree, and I want my friends to like it too. If I do something ,I want to do it well. And if something doesn't go well, I feel really guilty, and beat myself up over it!Even the slightest tiniest, most minute situation!From reading in mass to my figure. Yes, I know, you're probably all saying. "huh?" she has a totally imperfect figure, and such an imperfect relationship with God. And no one's perfect, as I said before, but some more than others, I'm not top rated, but I'm trying okay? I actually opened up bout this fully with a best friend of mine...for the first time today xD I'm honestly a perfectionist at heart,I try not to show my disappointment so much usually...
Anyway I think I'll stop here...sorry if I bored you,but I felt I should blog it!
God Bless You All, and you're all free to comment and criticise=P
P.S: This is d best video I found of this song,the words are the best, Stellar Kart- Finish Last =) Enjoy!