Confused much?

I really appreciate your advice guys,thanks for your time and patience!
Ok i tried..but it only backfired I suppose!I kinda want to give up..and there are other things bugging me...!Why?I dont know...And as close as you think you are to a person,sometimes you're to scared to open up,and open up a fresh wound...just incase you kinda fudge things up again?is anyone getting me?but then again I need to open up..but what if no one understands?Why things dont go away with the click of a finger,I'll never know!Rhetorical questions.....

Yes, I'm a very confused person at the moment,and no,I'm not being depressing...because I had a good day,had the time to catch up with paulaaaa!and had a great day!Love you pupaaa xxxxx

And Italy lost...but I got to sing mine and Bett's song for the first time since the live-in!I missed it!..and it actually counts for my current situation..so thanks bett for the lovely pianoness-And Rache for the good beginners luck billiards game XD

So you see,I'm a happy girl...I mean everyone has their doubts and problems inside,no?I just hate the fact that it can really affect my mood at the time..Amy can't be boring and moody XD

So I think pushing guys in the pool is hilarious!haven't played that "game" in AGES!So I really enjoyed it!Maaa pau and I walked from st.julians to bett's house..WE DIED!Really eventful day...must learn to open up more often...

byeee xxxxxxxxxx

Ahh well..summer?

What is up with Malta weather?Since when does it rain in June? Oh I know!Ever since we decided to ruin the environment!!PXXT
Well a high five goes to God for his rescue plan yeterday at Exiles...those who weren't there basically missed out on a huge wave and people swallowing water,bev and bett being dragged on the rocks...ben and rob trying to help them..and rob scraping his side while ben couldnt breathe properly! Basically I got extremely worried,but i kept it in,I mean a fuss is the last thing they needed,right?

I don't really care if anyone reads this aymore...atleast God does,and apparently this foreign Christian Blog, weused2bu. The link is on the side bar,check it out,pretty cool =)

Summer has officially started...im liking it..except for a few downs,actually quite a few downs..but I'm gna concentrate on smiling!

Has Jealousy entered my life?Or is it worry of loss? I know I'm confusing you,but well,I am confused...=O

Today we all played Twister at Bett' house,now I know why it's called Twister for real...I mean WOW!Left hand this right leg that..before you know it,you're down,flat on your ass...

just like everthing in life,no? (yes,another of my stupid comparisons) I mean you get twisted in things...: Drugs,smoking,drinking,lust,sex,bad company,obsessions/addictions...think of it this way,satans spinning the arrow...he's just picking something to twist you around his finger!Sometimes we think we're cool and we keep getting twisted till the end,cause we think we can manage..but we soon fall down,crying out to God..am I making sense?I'll shutup now xD

I have a question..as christians is it OK if there are certain people you just can't stand simply because of their character..or fakeness....Not without reason I mean,these people actually just bug you because of the way they act in front of others...I'm confuseddd

I'm leaving you wth yellow shorts,a mosquito bite,and an apricot in hand...
OH
and a confused brain with teary eyes =O

A new beginning..=)

Hey guys!
Summer begins in two days!!!!Can't believe it,after all this studying and stress,it's actually coming to an end =) which is absolutely super!!!So this weekend was really interesting,it involved sobbing and fights and laughter and swimming and fajitas and ice cream..friends and sun burn...but one of the most important high lights of this weekend was the fact that I have decided what I want to do with my life-no matter how hard it can get..I'm hanging on!!And the picture says it all- Pediatrician...for all of you who don't know what that it..it's a children's doctor!So has Achie btw,and that's really cool,God's really working amongst us!Love you Ach!=)
Anyway so a pediatrician is someone I've wanted to be ever since i was really little,and then missionary work it is..but that comes in time...I'm leaving it in Gods hands!!So thank God for this weekend,no matter how much i sobbed,I'm praising Him for it =)


So guys my back is peeling..BADLY..its all pink and yaqqq!!!hope it gets all normal,because I'll be spending loads of time in the sun soon! Lately I've been getting really close to one of the most amazing people you can ever meet- Sofia Mifsud...(my chippy), she has been the carrot in my carrot juice =P And I'm shouting out to her atm,as a thank you for everything =) *WAVES* I just found a really funny video that Vicky made me for me for my birthday..here's the link; (love you VIKKK my chicken nugget!!)
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=32888705808

Congrats goes to Ben for passing his driving test,He had faith and tadaaa..proset ben =) xxxxxx

Anyway,I shall leave you with a really ugly back,a gonzi t-shirt, and a grumbling stomach xD
God Bless you all xxxxxxxx

SORRY!!!

As you can see from the title,I'm extremely sorry guys!yes I've drifted apart from everything...un-willingly!i can't go in much detail about why or what caused this..but all I know is that after today...one of the best girls in my life showed me that things have to change...and so we did something about it..and we're going to continue doing something about it!and no matter how hard its going to get,I'm going to keep on!because nothing can be worse,i cant lose more in my life!!its not worth it...
All I ask is for your genuine prayers please =)
This is not an emo post or anything...I'm not some depressed person atm...
So basically in the past two months that i haven't posted, I turned sixteen,I have sat for most of my o'levels,I have missed my school friends,I have gotten terribly sun burnt,i have jumped in the sea twice,I have learned to like green peppers,I've worried a lot,I have missed rache terribly,I have stressed so much,I have fallen in love with the song: Dance like there's no tomorrow by Paula Abdul, I found out how much i love my girls,I have learned to appreciate life so much,I have made important decisions,I have celebrated my birthday with some of the most important people in my life in the best way ever,in other words I have learnt and experienced so much!
guys I love vicky...hehe i know its random but i just love her!!yesterday I spent the day at pitch with my school friends..and i hvnt relaxed so much in ages!!I've had the best start to summer,even though I'm really sore at the moment hehe.today was just amazing,and I haven't been so open with someone since last year!shes my amazing pupa..and u know who u r xD

Sorry for everything guys and a thank you goes to Bett.....xxxxxxxxxxxxx
God bless you all
Enjoy my fave song atm!!! =)

Being Ready!

Hey guys!
Thought I'd take a break from studying, and post something small.So basically I realised how ready we have to be for god's little challenges.To be more specific,I'll give you an example =)
So I was at Y4J last saturday...and basically half way through worship they started to sing Indescribable (Chris Tomlin) !I had a very good friend of mine who used to attend these meetings, and we used to love this song and would just sing it together all the time!So at that moment I said: "God,what do I do to get him/her back to you?" and I felt that i should message this friend and let him/her know...so I said sumting like : "Hey,we're singing Indescribable at the moment!Remember our favourite song?!So I thought of you,and wanted to let you know that God knows u and loves you cos he placed u in this world..love you x x x x "
And this person messaged back asking why i thought of him/her..insomma d messaging went on.But what I wanted to say was..I asked God what HE wants me to do, He answered me..and I did it!Ok it might not always be so easy...but it's possible!From the tiniest most stupid decision to the most important decision in your life,ask God what HE wants you to do...not what you want to do!
Gna type something from my bible:
Martin Luther once said, "I've got so much work to do today, I'd better spend two hours in prayer instead of one." Got tons of homework? Feel overwhelmed and rushed? Maybe the best way to get everything done is to stop and pray. Nehemiah was a man of action.He became governor of Judah and quickly got everyone to work building the walls of Jerusalem.But the first thing Nehemiah did "for some days" was to mourn and fast and pray: Nehemiah 1:4. If you're going to get any job done well,you need God's help.The time you take to pray before you act isn't wasted.It's the most important time of all.
So basically just pray before you do something,no matter how stupid it might sound to you...God will appreciate it =) Going to leave you with the song indescribable..rly cute video and another song of Desperation Band called Ready Now, that I also fell in love with...the words r gorgeous!=D x x x Enjoy!God bless you all!
p.s: For the second song, especially...just relax close your eyes and really pray the song..amazing xD

My last day at school!

That's 1996 ok guys? =) hehe
So basically I had rag day today!And I still can't believe it's all over!So basically we all met in Sliema at half 7ish,and some of my friends went to buy alcohol while I gladly stuck to nutella and Diet coke xD hehe.Insomma then we went on the beach and posed and laughed...till about 9.Went to school and prepared for our lovely, awaited rag day!We all had the t-shirts on, and our funny costumes for our dances!I was Ginger Spice! =P And we all bonded maa on the last day, then did our thing, in front of the whole school, read the poem, some of us cried, some of us laughed.Played Prisoners against the teachers, and Our headmistress joined in. Really funny game!Did our line dance....cried...hugged...said bye to some teachers...mr.camilleri made me cry,but i kept it in till after he left xD cos im cool xD haha...Then we got a cute speech from our assistant head...and we made our way to avenue!When we finally got there the place was empty, so avenue was ours =P except for the waiters anyway hehe so the music was full on and we really enjoyed ourselves...ate..had our breaks outside haha..then went on the rocky beach and laughed our asses off!I got really close to friends I probably won't be seeing at all...which kinda sucks!We should really start to appreciate things before they're too late...I mean I really cried today...and hekk maa I'm gna miss my girls loads!We've been 2geder for 12 years!Such a small school,so we were like a small family!Tomorrow we have our mass,then we're going out together!So basically I wanted to tell you about my emotional but exciting day guys =)
Thanks everyone of you...for making me smile when I was down, and piss in my pants when it was really un-expected..thanks for foaming me (yes they foamed me) and thanks for being just you, because I am who i am today cause of you!!! Love you all xXx

One of my comparisons =)

Hey guys!
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but as some of you know, I have O'levels this month, so I'm a bit tight with time!But I have made time for a blog tonight!hehe
So basically today, after school my mum stopped at greens and asked the butcher for left over ham/meats and she bought two cans of dog food.When I saw her coming towards the car, i was like HUH? we don't have any pets at home xD hehe!But I soon found out we were off to the dog sanctuary in Pembroke!And insomma we went,and there was the guy who takes care of them, and he was telling us about how mepa doesn't want him to keep this place,and like basically these dogs are all abandoned dogs,found in the streets,and he just built a couple of rooms near the sea, and a gate round.And they're threatening him and stuff!And this guy was there, cleaning up all their shit, feeding them, its all voluntary work and he has two of these made shelters in Malta...and he seemed really upset and worried!So I was thinking...just imagine we were the dogs instead, and Gods' taking care of us, not getting anything in return but shit really..so its all out of love!and like there are people,things, and mostly satan trying to ruin things,trying to break down the shelter so we won't be protected anymore...and God (the guy) keeps on fighting with all he can just to keep us safe, and He's not going to give up on us, cos He loves us OK? =D No matter what we do, no matter what we say, He's going to want to clean us,feed us and keep us safe!So as encouragement guys,when you feel tempted,or when you know you're going to do something wrong...turn direction,don't face the gate, face god...walk towards the closed room with food, not the cold,rusty gate!I know its hard, TRUST ME!I'm telling you this, cos i fell for temptation last weekend!And I'm trying to turn my direction...we can do it guys! Praying for all of you!if sum1 needs a chat or sumting, let me know!
God Bless XxX