If only XD

So yesterday..wednesday..everyone was celebrating our last Wednesday night out before school begins!

For me, PV is one of my weaknesses,not proud of it,but I'd rather admit it then try be cool and go and end up doing something I'll definitely regret..XD and I'm really taking God seriously..more than I ever have actually!So I really didn't want to ruin it...but Bett convinced me that it would be OK if we stuck together..and I convinced Elaine...so Bett,Elaine,Achie,Rob and I met up at the millennium chapel first,prayed then made our way to meet the others!Yes,temptations did come my way...but you know what?I really believed God would satisfy me without me drinking excessively!So I had 2 drinks in all,and we danced quite 'modestly' I would say!I was so happy and felt really good about it!

If only everyone tried it the God way....it doesn't mean we have to succeed every time,but at least we could try!

Anyway I wrote this sort of poem XD

I want to please you,
To try and keep you smiling
In everything I say and do.

I want to keep you close,
To be able to hold your hand,
Hold it tight when I need you the most.

I want to show you I can do it,
Without you I don’t stand a chance
Of getting through the night without being stupid.

I want to show you off to the world,
Let them know they could show you off too,
If only they made you their world!

So tonight may you keep smiling,
May you stay closer than I think,
Let me know you believe in me,
And let the world open their eyes and let them see.

Blessings readers xxxxxx

Let Me...

I'll come to the title soon enough.
There are 3 weeks left for school,which means in 3 weeks a 2-year course begins and ends with a-levels which determine if you're going to university or not.Stressful enough? =)

Last night us school girls reunited on ghadira bay.Not exactly the reunion I had in mind but at least I got to see some of my good friends,and I did laugh towards the end!
Coming to the title..

So,as some of you know 'Let me' is the original name to mine and bett's song, it's basically a cry out to god in pain but trusting him at the same time...a lamentation.

That song is exactly how I'm feeling at the moment,so I'll leave you with the lyrics and I really ask that you pray them,and let God do what He has to do =)

So I'll leave you with a sun burnt face,and a bloated stomach!Blessings!

Can you hear my screams and cries?
I’m calling out to you
Just hold me tight and I’ll be saved

Let me know you still care
You still love me
This time I cant get back up alone
Let me cry out to you
Let it all out, Jesus
I need your help

Can’t you see I’m fading
While pretending I’m fine
I’m not alone, you’re here with me

Let me know you still care
You still love me
This time I cant get back up alone
Let me cry out to you
Let it all out, Jesus
I need your help

Come and find me, I’m lost
Please don’t forget me..

Mr.Ant

Greetings fellow loved children of God =)

Last week,I was flipping through my metal bible,when I realised a small ant running around between the cover and the pages. I tried carrying him out,but he just wouldnt stay still!I knew that if I closed my bible,he would be squashed...so,with my bible upside down,I'm praying he would fall out,even if he hurt a bit as he landed,but atleast he wouldn't waste away..

And then...a comparison comes to mind!God so desperately wants to save us,but we so humanly stubborn our way through it,ignoring Him,and running away from Him!Then it comes to the point where it's going to hurt a bit but atleast we'll be saved!

Point of this...?
Stop running..stop being scared and for once in your life,will you trust in God?Will you just let Him pick you up and carry you through it?...

So wherever or whoever you are Mr.Ant...God loves you and wants to hold you =)

Blessings and cuddles wished from the olsen twin fanatic xxxx

Amazing song....Carrie Underwood!

A must see video!

So I have been emailing a christian guy from Georgia this past week. I found his blog,and thought his story was amazing,and he has come so far,and he really showed me that God can do anything if you just let Him take control...

Prayers and blessings sent to Andy =)
http://www.crucialencounter.com/

So I visited one of Andy's friends blogs, and I found this video,which has opened my eyes,and once again given me encouragement,that no matter how much we want to give up,and sometimes do,God never does,and keeps using people to save His people...

It won't let the video appear,so just click on the link I'll soon paste, trust me it's worth it!!
Please comment and give your opinion on the video...

http://www.cbs.com/thunder/player/thunder.php?pid=ZlkVH0nHQBg2Oey2nUlkclKYlGKtk6Ge

Anyway

This week I have also reflected upon the fact that I have brothers and sisters in Christ,struggling all over the world,fighting to live,hungry to know Jesus...I just wish I could meet them...God has introduced me to some already,and I have learnt so much,I just can't wait to meet others!

May God honestly bless all of you,and keep the video in mind!
Blessings,Amy xxxxx

Full but yet empty..

A week at soul survivor...one would expect total drastic change once back home...and though God has filled certain holes in my life...some of them are left un-filled...for a reason!i know there's a reason!and they're kind of getting deeper...

Anyway..

I apply to junior college tomorrow..and dls too!!Excitement and nerves!Especially on the course I chose!

Something I shared in the workshop I'm in...
So during a main meeting at SS,i asked god for forgiveness for all the things i needed to be forgiven for,and i needed to forgive myself for..and I felt him ask : "Sorry for what exactly?" So i got a paper and started to list all my sins down...God asked me to hold on to it,so I put it behind my name tag!the next day I lost it...I was really disappointed,I wanted to say sorry to God over and over again!So in the next meeting I let God know what was on my mind,and He told me, "I told you to hold on to it so you could lose it..just so you will realise that I let go of your sins the minute you realised it was wrong and felt shame and asked for forgiveness...."
I was like WOW!That's one of the holes God filled for me...=)

2 comparisons for you people xD
*drum roll please*

So as most of you know we rolled in the mud in England...and at first it was really exciting...it got really fun...then we got really tired,and the mud was going in places we didn't want it to go (not in a rude way)...and then it took ages till we actually got the courage to wash it off,and it took ages!I could have just thrown my clothes away...but I didn't,I showered and after lots of "EWW's" and "Oh my garlic bread's" we managed...and the showers were left really dirty..and the maids had to clean them and it took a while for all the traces of mud to totally disappear...

2 comparisons can evolve from this story....

1) Sin

Let's take drugs and alcohol.In the beginning it's really exciting,you're really into it!and it gets better for a while...then it starts to give negative effects...you get dizzy and dehydrated..throwing up bla bla..things start to go overboard,you're doing things you never wanted to do!So then you decide to stop.You keep doubting whether you can...and when you actually decide to,it takes ages till you get it right,till people stop talking about you..till your parents start to trust you again...so,you want to give up,you can't manage..you're scared....you think that even when you do stop there are things that will never go back to the way they were before...but that's until God cleans them up for you....FOR FREE!!!!

2) God's love

God created us...He made us,and played with us!He was mega excited about us..and we were about Him!!But then we grew into teenagers,God only got in the way..so we got tired of the you can't do this- and you can't do that routine...so we abandoned God,and started doing stupid stuff...God missed every one of us...then we turned back to God...we were so scared,thinking He didn't want us now...we lost our chance!But he hasn't given up on us,he grabs us,all muddy and smelly,hugs us and starts to rinse the sins off!And through all our hurts and moaning, He keeps cleansing us...till we're brand new xD

Sorry if I bored you....Leaving you with tissue blessings,and a runny nose!
xxxxxx

Not needed,but WANTED!

So I came upon one of the cutest videos on facebook!Listen and look...will compare after =)





Yes,you're allowed to cry =P So basically I kind of thought about it this way, the lion being God and the two guys representing us when we come back to God. It's really ironic because today's talk at Y4J was about the prodigal son...anyway,we start to push God out of our life,because we think He's getting in the way right? We can't get drunk or have sex bla bla...basically in the end we run back to Him,just like Tutzi (our youth leader) explained today.And God is so happy when we go back to him,he comforts us and shows us His great love!We usually go back to God in shame,thinking He would have forgotten all about us by now,but in fact He hasn't stopped thinking about us for one second!

Moving on...

Soul survivor in 6 days!I am really excited!Honestly!Today was our last Y4J meeting before Soul survivor,and I really gave it all I could!I opened up to God about everything,and asked him to take me as I am...
He's taken me guys...I am God's private property now,and you all need
permission from Him to borrow me for anything =P haha

Beer fest last night was good, Chinese was grand =D van trip home after took around an hour and a half!How mad aye?We went round all Malta!Then Vik,Bett,Ach and Rache slept over,and this morning bett and ach went to creche,while I slept again,got woken up by rob...then bett and Elaine came back...and we spent the day at my house eating and chilling! Leaving me feel like i just got run over! =)

My to-do list:

Re-do highlights & cut hair.
Go take passport photo for 6Th form applications.
Go wrap luggage.
Go lidl food shopping.
Put beads in hair.
Blow dry on Saturday.
Etc,etc.,

I'll share a poem tomorrow OK?because I'm about to fall asleep now!
God bless you all xxx

People,places and potties xD

hey guys...my thoughts for the week!

So we went to Comino for 2 days,and I had a great time, I learnt so much,honestly! The scenery was brilliant,i was in awe of God's creation! Even jellyfish struck me with their metre long tentacles xD

So my mum decided to relate how I never wanted to use the potty when I was younger,but always wanted to use the toilet!so I used to get the stool and climb up on to the toilet seat and Voilaaaa...

But...I kind of realised I'm still like that,but in a God way! If God tells me to do something I might try to be independent and do it another way, because I think He'll be prouder of me if I try reach His ways without His help sort of thing...getting me?
Back to the potty story- it would take me longer to pee,until i went for the stool and climbed and stuff....so basically it takes me longer to do something,because I try to do it my own way. And even worse, I usually don't manage without getting mega stressed and frustrated at myself for failing!

So I'm gna paste a bit of a God-diary i keep on the comp..this is last years,but it shows how I don't give God control..

1st September 07

Hi God&co,
What in d world is gng on? Evrytings gng haywire God! I feel like I can’t take control of anything in life, I’ve totally lost grip and I don’t think I can keep holding on, I want to but evrytings just stressing me out!

And then this is me being mega positive xD

9/10/07

I'm lost…I need your loving guidance, I know ure here wit me Lord nd I thank u 4 it!I don’t know wat 2 do so I'm leaving dis in your hands!i hv faith dat ders a reason 4 everything!…..i know Ive got u by my side, never to be alone!Love you xxxxxx

so that's a bit of the real me...=)

not gna end here xD

So today during the workshop in our quiet time,i realised something else =D

I want to be loved,
But I need to love myself.

I want to be forgiven,
But first i need to forgive.

And I want to know you,
But first i need to know myself.

Its quite long this post aye/Sorry!Had alot to say! I hope I didn't bore you..well if anyone is still reading!

So what have I learnt this past week?

1) Give control to God.
2) Appreciate things more.
3) Give more service to others.
4)Comino hotel closes their kitchen at half 9 xD
5) Friends are too special to lose!

So I'll leave you in my 'Pretty Little Rebel' top,pink linen trousers, 2 tired,closing eyes and a cute quote xD

'We turn to God when our foundations are shaking,only to find out that it is God who is shaking them!'

Good night xxxxxx