Full but yet empty..

A week at soul survivor...one would expect total drastic change once back home...and though God has filled certain holes in my life...some of them are left un-filled...for a reason!i know there's a reason!and they're kind of getting deeper...

Anyway..

I apply to junior college tomorrow..and dls too!!Excitement and nerves!Especially on the course I chose!

Something I shared in the workshop I'm in...
So during a main meeting at SS,i asked god for forgiveness for all the things i needed to be forgiven for,and i needed to forgive myself for..and I felt him ask : "Sorry for what exactly?" So i got a paper and started to list all my sins down...God asked me to hold on to it,so I put it behind my name tag!the next day I lost it...I was really disappointed,I wanted to say sorry to God over and over again!So in the next meeting I let God know what was on my mind,and He told me, "I told you to hold on to it so you could lose it..just so you will realise that I let go of your sins the minute you realised it was wrong and felt shame and asked for forgiveness...."
I was like WOW!That's one of the holes God filled for me...=)

2 comparisons for you people xD
*drum roll please*

So as most of you know we rolled in the mud in England...and at first it was really exciting...it got really fun...then we got really tired,and the mud was going in places we didn't want it to go (not in a rude way)...and then it took ages till we actually got the courage to wash it off,and it took ages!I could have just thrown my clothes away...but I didn't,I showered and after lots of "EWW's" and "Oh my garlic bread's" we managed...and the showers were left really dirty..and the maids had to clean them and it took a while for all the traces of mud to totally disappear...

2 comparisons can evolve from this story....

1) Sin

Let's take drugs and alcohol.In the beginning it's really exciting,you're really into it!and it gets better for a while...then it starts to give negative effects...you get dizzy and dehydrated..throwing up bla bla..things start to go overboard,you're doing things you never wanted to do!So then you decide to stop.You keep doubting whether you can...and when you actually decide to,it takes ages till you get it right,till people stop talking about you..till your parents start to trust you again...so,you want to give up,you can't manage..you're scared....you think that even when you do stop there are things that will never go back to the way they were before...but that's until God cleans them up for you....FOR FREE!!!!

2) God's love

God created us...He made us,and played with us!He was mega excited about us..and we were about Him!!But then we grew into teenagers,God only got in the way..so we got tired of the you can't do this- and you can't do that routine...so we abandoned God,and started doing stupid stuff...God missed every one of us...then we turned back to God...we were so scared,thinking He didn't want us now...we lost our chance!But he hasn't given up on us,he grabs us,all muddy and smelly,hugs us and starts to rinse the sins off!And through all our hurts and moaning, He keeps cleansing us...till we're brand new xD

Sorry if I bored you....Leaving you with tissue blessings,and a runny nose!
xxxxxx

Another comparison xD

hey guys

So i realised i haven't compared a live situation to God's love in ages xD
But Comino has inspired me!

So my dad and I were in a dinghy and he was trying to teach me how to control it,to drive and stuff.There were boats all around us,people swimming,choppy sea...But I wanted to try,thinking I was ready!So I started driving it, when suddenly I was about to go straight in a boat!!I freaked,I was really panicked!I just gave my dad the steer thing really quickly,and he had to pull the emergency string xD But the point is, sometimes we think we're ready,we go for it,and when we realise that we're not ready,and things get tough,we turn to our Daddy!We give him control of our lives,but first we all have to realise that we can't control our own lives alone,that's when you can fully give your life to Jesus. Another thing! Ask Jesus if you're ready,only He knows xD

I have a question,that I'm hoping some of you bored readers could answer please. To what extent have you gone to keep secret?And why do we do crazy things like lying our asses off just to hide our little defects and situations from others? Hmmm *thinks*

So a thank you to God for saving one of the fishermen,but the 11 year old boy is unfortunately lost at sea =( his dad saw him float off the raft,but was too helpless to grab hold of him. Keep praying!

Missing Rache!!!hardly any credit to message her!
soul survivor soon!!we have to be at the airport at around 5 in the morning guys!how exciting is that?! =D

Anyway,god bless you all xxxxxx

Old friend back to visit =)

So as all of you probably know,Maria, my Norwegian friend is in Malta, till tomorrow =(

But I swear I haven't had such a good time in ages,totally hilarious moments,bringing back old memories,playing the fools, Isle of MTV, sleepovers,swimming xD good times =)

Probably one of the best weeks this summer....besides soul survivor xD

Anyway, I know I haven't updated in ages,but this is why..I had more important things to do =P seriously!I was busy everyday!I didn't even have time to watch OC =D

So this is it for now,enjoy summer,pray for us o'levelers who receive our results next week...!!!

And a high five for the much needed night out last night xD Love you girls xxxxxxxxxxx

God bless you xxxx

Summer Update!

Hey fellow aliens who are also raised by humans!

Mmm today!Well went to exiles,and laughed quite a bit,had a water fight,they soaked my dress!!*cough cough ROB cough cough*

I was supposed to go to paulas..but she got sick..so thats a get well soon to Pau!

Had quite a few blonde moments today...what is up with me?Must work on increasing my intelligence level thing!!

You know that situation I had told you about last month,where I'm trying my hardest to change things round,well it's going well...except for the fact that it's not as easy as people think it is,and it's really insensitive for people to just push it out of the way,I mean just because I decided to change a few things doesn't make it A OKAY!!I mean I'm not saying that people should treat me with pity, NOT AT ALL!!! OK fine i get the point,you want me to shut up xD Was confusing myself anyway....hehe

What else has happened lately?Hmmm....*thinks*
Well I found out for myself that honesty is amazing...I mean one minute im really upset over something,I speak to someone and open up and tell them this and that...and the next minute i'm smiling and laughing!Woo high five to honesty!=)

Rache came over for an hour last night,but we had enough time to catch up,so I loved it..love you rachel gatt!!

My social is on wednesday!!SOCIAL!!nail appointments,hair appointments,pampering sessions,transport..AAAA excitement!!!!!!!!

60 days to soul survivor!!!!60!!!!thats like SOON!!we're going back home alienssssssss XD

Maria (my norweigan friend) arrives in Malta in 11 days..on the 22nd of June!...which is even sooner than SS!!!I miss her too much!!I need my pig-out buddy XD

There are 11 days to the 22nd of june,right? =
ok double of 11 is 22,and since today is the 11th,that means there 11 more days till the 22nd...you see guys, I'm smart xD...ISH hehe

That's about it...just a shout out to Krissy,a really sweet girl,who I'm getting to know at the moment...To another Chrissy,who's on a cruise!To Achie who's my richie depositer xD I already shouted out to Pau and Rache....Ohh and to rob,who really entertains me with his comebacks,and who's twin brother is a dog....that's for wetting me =)

Biggest shout out goes to God.for simply being amazing,and taking us back no matter what!Forgiving our everything....being our everything!

I shall leave you with a really funny Krizia top,a hurting stomach,a quiet house,and a doonie's doughnut XD