Heya..
So all those wondering how life's been treating me, just know, that mr.life is mean AND nice at the same time...I mean even when everything's going wrong, I'm still hekk helping people and stuff...and that's amazing!I mean for those who know me, I'm the type of person who enjoys helping where possible,and I think God's trying to show me something, I'm not sure what it is yet, but I know that there's something behind all of this confusion! I'm holding on xD Lenten Talks are over, and I must say, they were brilliant! Talks, sound, dance, mime, poetry, songs, videos, effects, adoration...everything =P And that reminds me, the mime was like wow...we all really enjoyed it!I felt so alive...we were all praying throughout, and I'm telling you guys!!PRAYER IS AMAZING! So many new people found God this week, and Zoe and I ministered to these 3 girls...who are constantly in my prayers!And I really enjoyed learning and discovering new stuff this week! So Glory to God for everything He's done this past week! Sorry I haven't posted the poem, but I'm having doubts about it...teehee xD Ok so Matt told me something, you know the video of Eric Clapton singing Tears in Heaven that I posted about 2posts back, well I didn't quite know this amazing background of the song, untill Matt kindly opened my eyes =P "Eric Clapton wrote that song on heroin because he was in a depression,he wrote that song locked in a room, drugged with just a bed a guitar and a gun." Quoting Matt =) So basically, just to let you know guys, even in the worst points in your life, when you feel there's nothing to live for, nothing to keep you going, you keep going anyway!A blind step of faith guys!You get back up, even with those wounds so deep, even with your vision so blurry, and the road all bumpy...just remember God is at the end of the road, arms wide open, ready to welcome you!We're all gna manage ok children of God? Even if your friends have ditched you,even if your family is falling apart, even if you're abused or bullied, even if you're having trouble with food, even if you cut everyday cos you have no one to talk to!and even if you're heartbroken so badly,that you don't even see yourself getting out of it this time...You're gna manage....cos Jesus died for YOU, YES YOU!!And He's with you every step of the way...carrying you through it ok? Yes, guys I'm convinced, and I can really picture us all struggling towards the end of the road, all with different wounds...but all helping eachother through it, and God sending his angels to wipe our cuts, and hold our hand for support...and God going from one person to another, whispering some words of encouragment and hugging them tight..aaa im imagining this and smiling to myself xD And one last thing, so you know yest the talk was about changing the world, and Matt sent me this song of Nickelback, and it's about how different people changed the world because they had faith...and if we all cared then the world would be different! Basically there's this written at the end of the video that I'm going to post:
"Never doubt that a small group of committed ppl can change the world,indeed it is the only thing that ever has."
And also remember, ARK ; one Act of Random Kindness at a time. Enjoy the amazing song, and God Bless you all!!!!!!!!!! I'm always here if anyone of you needs a chat ok? =) Bye bye XXX
P.S: Thanks Ach for the hug post, loved it!And the 20-second thing was just funny...Thank you for being a great friend, along with Zoe,Kai,Pau and Vicky who were rly there for me yest!Love you all xxxx
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
Inspired!
Hey Guys!
So I'm gna start off by thanking Achie, for being the most honest blogger, even though you blogged about your hurts and confusion, it made me think..good-thinking-kinda-thing.Yes Ach through your words of hurt, you inspired me to deepen my search to find me...the real me. Just like Fr.Ray Toledo asked us: Who Am I? And this reminded me of when I still learnt italian at school, and an essay was set,and I remember we had to write bout ourselves. And literally i was in my room,with the paper still blank,tears rolling down my cheek, cause i had no idea what to write, i had no idea who i was, nd i still dont!Someone might say, but you've been going to Y4J for two years,what nothing's changed? Oh a lot has changed,but I'm going to be honest, I only fully gave everything up in january!Nope, your eyes aren't gng mad,only last month did I offer up everything.But I'm going to continue sharing my honest mood with you guys and let you know, that no, it wasn't easy,and still isn't. Not to discourage you, more as to let you know, dat no, God doesnt take away your troubles just cos u gave your life to him,and no, the imaginary wall doesn't just appear to keep satan away, i actually think that satan has found a way through that wall,way up the mountain...in other words, he's a meany!And as to confess,in my last post i mentioned that my troubles have not affected my attitude towards people, I have actually partly failed!Not that I'm not there for people, or I don't smile to anyone, anzi...but im giving off weird vibes, like really weird.And it really hurts me to know I cant be me,because I simply dont know where or who me is.No sorry guys, im not even half way there =P And truely and honestly, I'm on the edge of a cliff, but holding on like nothing before. One might ask why, and then I ask myself why?Well besides the fact that I want to hold on to God with all I've got, i have no idea why im holding on to anything else, is it even necessary to hold on to anything else?All rhetorical questions dont worry =) I really wanna appologise to this guy haha...well he knows who he is, and he knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life, well I haven't been the best friend I'm supposed to be towards him, and so I want you to know, that im really sorry,and will try harder! And to think that one smile can cover up a milion tears, wow...I mean, nothing's going to stop me from smiling, cause im a smiley person with a very loud, annoying laugh (found out today) but when theres a time to show my hurts, I'm going to show my hurts!Today Sara and I walked to Tutzi from PV bus stop, and wow was that a walk!Through Regional road at 7 in the morning, I felt a sudden sample of my everyday life,struggling through everyting, just because the bus routine started an hour after we wer supposed to meet tutzi,but knowing that soon enough we'll arrive, gave us a sense of encouragment,in other words, aiming for something, is better than just being a leaf in the wind, aim for something big and high, way over your capabilities,because through God, there's no limit.
I think I'll shutup now!Sorry for the long, but very honest post...
God Bless You All!!! (Btw sorry but poem will be delayed for a while)
Beautiful aye?I captured this photo on a stormy day in pembroke!Lovely!
So I'm gna start off by thanking Achie, for being the most honest blogger, even though you blogged about your hurts and confusion, it made me think..good-thinking-kinda-thing.Yes Ach through your words of hurt, you inspired me to deepen my search to find me...the real me. Just like Fr.Ray Toledo asked us: Who Am I? And this reminded me of when I still learnt italian at school, and an essay was set,and I remember we had to write bout ourselves. And literally i was in my room,with the paper still blank,tears rolling down my cheek, cause i had no idea what to write, i had no idea who i was, nd i still dont!Someone might say, but you've been going to Y4J for two years,what nothing's changed? Oh a lot has changed,but I'm going to be honest, I only fully gave everything up in january!Nope, your eyes aren't gng mad,only last month did I offer up everything.But I'm going to continue sharing my honest mood with you guys and let you know, that no, it wasn't easy,and still isn't. Not to discourage you, more as to let you know, dat no, God doesnt take away your troubles just cos u gave your life to him,and no, the imaginary wall doesn't just appear to keep satan away, i actually think that satan has found a way through that wall,way up the mountain...in other words, he's a meany!And as to confess,in my last post i mentioned that my troubles have not affected my attitude towards people, I have actually partly failed!Not that I'm not there for people, or I don't smile to anyone, anzi...but im giving off weird vibes, like really weird.And it really hurts me to know I cant be me,because I simply dont know where or who me is.No sorry guys, im not even half way there =P And truely and honestly, I'm on the edge of a cliff, but holding on like nothing before. One might ask why, and then I ask myself why?Well besides the fact that I want to hold on to God with all I've got, i have no idea why im holding on to anything else, is it even necessary to hold on to anything else?All rhetorical questions dont worry =) I really wanna appologise to this guy haha...well he knows who he is, and he knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life, well I haven't been the best friend I'm supposed to be towards him, and so I want you to know, that im really sorry,and will try harder! And to think that one smile can cover up a milion tears, wow...I mean, nothing's going to stop me from smiling, cause im a smiley person with a very loud, annoying laugh (found out today) but when theres a time to show my hurts, I'm going to show my hurts!Today Sara and I walked to Tutzi from PV bus stop, and wow was that a walk!Through Regional road at 7 in the morning, I felt a sudden sample of my everyday life,struggling through everyting, just because the bus routine started an hour after we wer supposed to meet tutzi,but knowing that soon enough we'll arrive, gave us a sense of encouragment,in other words, aiming for something, is better than just being a leaf in the wind, aim for something big and high, way over your capabilities,because through God, there's no limit.
I think I'll shutup now!Sorry for the long, but very honest post...
God Bless You All!!! (Btw sorry but poem will be delayed for a while)
Beautiful aye?I captured this photo on a stormy day in pembroke!Lovely!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Staying strong!
Hey flower pots =D
I'm sorry I haven't blogged in practically ages, but I've had a lot going on, and by that I mean, not good stuff. But hey I'm keeping my head high,my smile on and my words of faith going...because that's what being a Christian is all about no? Holding on to God's promises, and not going in one depression because something didn't go your way...I used to be like that, I used to isolate myself and just fake smile to everyone who didn't know what was really going on inside my head,but ever since the 12th of January,illalu even though things are going wacko xD It hasn't affected the way I treat others,cos i feel so new...God is truly amazing guys!And I really want to thank Vicky, who has stood by me through every thing!It feels like I've known her all my life,and I really want to thank God for her, and for other true friends,some also, best friends,you all know who you are =)
Anyway guys I want to encourage anyone that's stuck in a two-way road...where things also seem to be going a bit wacko hehe...to just close your eyes,alone in a room,and just ask God to take control over your life and extend your territory =) always here if someone needs to chat OK?
I have a poem to show you guys, if any one's still alive out there hehe...but I'll post it tomorrow!And guys I truly ask you as my brothers and sisters in Christ to keep me in your prayers please...I kinda need it...I don't wanna hide my bad times from you guys,cos if i hide them from you,then whats d point?Friends are supposed to sharpen each other!
Sorry if i bored you guys....God Bless you all!!! =) XxX
Eric Clapton sings this song, for his son who died cos he fell out of a window,I sung this for a show once,and ekk i thought of it haha its beautiful ah!
I'm sorry I haven't blogged in practically ages, but I've had a lot going on, and by that I mean, not good stuff. But hey I'm keeping my head high,my smile on and my words of faith going...because that's what being a Christian is all about no? Holding on to God's promises, and not going in one depression because something didn't go your way...I used to be like that, I used to isolate myself and just fake smile to everyone who didn't know what was really going on inside my head,but ever since the 12th of January,illalu even though things are going wacko xD It hasn't affected the way I treat others,cos i feel so new...God is truly amazing guys!And I really want to thank Vicky, who has stood by me through every thing!It feels like I've known her all my life,and I really want to thank God for her, and for other true friends,some also, best friends,you all know who you are =)
Anyway guys I want to encourage anyone that's stuck in a two-way road...where things also seem to be going a bit wacko hehe...to just close your eyes,alone in a room,and just ask God to take control over your life and extend your territory =) always here if someone needs to chat OK?
I have a poem to show you guys, if any one's still alive out there hehe...but I'll post it tomorrow!And guys I truly ask you as my brothers and sisters in Christ to keep me in your prayers please...I kinda need it...I don't wanna hide my bad times from you guys,cos if i hide them from you,then whats d point?Friends are supposed to sharpen each other!
Sorry if i bored you guys....God Bless you all!!! =) XxX
Eric Clapton sings this song, for his son who died cos he fell out of a window,I sung this for a show once,and ekk i thought of it haha its beautiful ah!
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Slum Survivor and Y4J Lenten Talks
Aaa guys...lets let Malta know about both of these events...dont be shy, let all your contacts on msn know, GOD RULESSSSSSSS :D
God blessss yoouuuuu alllll xxxx
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
How far will we go?
So I was flipping channels yesterday, and Jerry was on (i usually hate that program) but it was about plastic surgery, and basically this woman went under the knife 46 times, there isn't something she didn't fix, and she was really beautiful ta!!! Insomma basically at like 30 or sumting she decided she wanted to be the perfect barbie. And she said:
"I didn't care about the cutting and the slicing and the pain and the blood and stitches,I just cared about how I would look in the end, how I look now."
And it clicked...*light bulb* hehe...why do we seem to give up with the first feeling of pain...why do we not have the same attitude? Issa im speaking in general, me included. The second we know ders gna be pain we give up, we dont get back up. We wudnt want to get hurt wud we? but who said dat its gna be easy? We are gna get cut and sliced and bruised...but in the end what will we get?
SALVATION!
So lets have the same attitude, but instead of having that materialistic need, lets have a need for God, a need for love and understanding, a need of a father and encouragment! How far will we go guys?Will we stop at our second "plastic surgery" or maybe the third?fourth?fifth? or will we keep going, even over those 46 brutal failures? Fine maybe we wont get that blonde hair,maybe we wont get rid of those pimples, maybe those cellulite just wont budge, that 6 pack your bstfriend keeps bragging about just never seem to POP out even after those 500 situps every night..and dat saggy stomach fat will just seem to never disappear...but we'll get sumting we desperately need,sumting u cant buy...Eternal Life with the one and only..GOD =)
I know this is long...and sorry but I have to mention something else, so then there was this guy who was amazed at this fake barbie doll's beauty, so he went under the knife himself to be another Barbie doll...yes he became a blonde woman...and so basically if we do evrything we can to reflect God's love for us to others, through our actions and words, then people will want what we have...people will point and say: Dont u think ders sumting mysterious bout dat girl?Dont u think dat guy has sumting different?
So I challenge you all..to go out there..with those knives nd pipes and injections coming at you, but to keep going until the time comes, when everything will be sooo worth it!!!!! God Bless =)
Praying for you all X
This Video Shows us that tere's someone to hold on to no matter what!This is my fave band...i love them!!!!!! =) Enjoy!!
"I didn't care about the cutting and the slicing and the pain and the blood and stitches,I just cared about how I would look in the end, how I look now."
And it clicked...*light bulb* hehe...why do we seem to give up with the first feeling of pain...why do we not have the same attitude? Issa im speaking in general, me included. The second we know ders gna be pain we give up, we dont get back up. We wudnt want to get hurt wud we? but who said dat its gna be easy? We are gna get cut and sliced and bruised...but in the end what will we get?
SALVATION!
So lets have the same attitude, but instead of having that materialistic need, lets have a need for God, a need for love and understanding, a need of a father and encouragment! How far will we go guys?Will we stop at our second "plastic surgery" or maybe the third?fourth?fifth? or will we keep going, even over those 46 brutal failures? Fine maybe we wont get that blonde hair,maybe we wont get rid of those pimples, maybe those cellulite just wont budge, that 6 pack your bstfriend keeps bragging about just never seem to POP out even after those 500 situps every night..and dat saggy stomach fat will just seem to never disappear...but we'll get sumting we desperately need,sumting u cant buy...Eternal Life with the one and only..GOD =)
I know this is long...and sorry but I have to mention something else, so then there was this guy who was amazed at this fake barbie doll's beauty, so he went under the knife himself to be another Barbie doll...yes he became a blonde woman...and so basically if we do evrything we can to reflect God's love for us to others, through our actions and words, then people will want what we have...people will point and say: Dont u think ders sumting mysterious bout dat girl?Dont u think dat guy has sumting different?
So I challenge you all..to go out there..with those knives nd pipes and injections coming at you, but to keep going until the time comes, when everything will be sooo worth it!!!!! God Bless =)
Praying for you all X
This Video Shows us that tere's someone to hold on to no matter what!This is my fave band...i love them!!!!!! =) Enjoy!!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Lenten Talks
Short post today...basically im rly sick, and i hv my chem mock on thurs nd i can hardly study with the random migraines.But Gods being faithful,as always,but im trying not to take His love for granted (one of my lent sacrifices)so evry little small thing is a big thing for me.Pls keep ppl in the mime and dance and viks poetry and the Y4J band and youth team and any1 helping in lenten talks in your prayers pls.Lenten talks r close!
They're running from the 25th Feb to the 1st March at 8-9 pm at the St.Julians Parish.Its rly worth coming guys!Im personally rly looking forward to dem. See you for now...also cud u pls keep me in your prayers,just a little one,not gng through the best time,but aa im praising God,cos He deserves all praise...
Keep praying, God Bless X
Take care all of you!dont ever give up!
*I would post a picture of the lenten talk poster,but its too big nd it came all green,so make it a point to come nd see it at the lenten talks xD And visit www.y4jmalta.com... new website 2moro what fun!*
They're running from the 25th Feb to the 1st March at 8-9 pm at the St.Julians Parish.Its rly worth coming guys!Im personally rly looking forward to dem. See you for now...also cud u pls keep me in your prayers,just a little one,not gng through the best time,but aa im praising God,cos He deserves all praise...
Keep praying, God Bless X
Take care all of you!dont ever give up!
*I would post a picture of the lenten talk poster,but its too big nd it came all green,so make it a point to come nd see it at the lenten talks xD And visit www.y4jmalta.com... new website 2moro what fun!*
Thursday, February 7, 2008
A Thankful Day!
So guys today was the beginning of 3 weeks of mocks xD But i'm praising God for them..but I also got into a bit of trouble at school, quite worrying at first, but now I realised that it's ok!!! Its not like i purposely did something wrong, something just backfired!I've learnt something out of it and that's what's most important hux =) But Thanks for caring everyone,esp my trouble buddies; Vik,Sara nd Sof xD Ajma I got messages nd calls to see if evrytings ok..I felt really loved!but not as much as God loves me! anyone whose reading this just stop doing anything else and for a minute just TRY and imagine how much God loves you...just try!we hv nooo idea!HE LOVES US SOOO MUCH!Yes guys im in an I'm-in-love-with-jesus-mood...as always, but im hyper so it shows more =P Too bad no ones awake to be in love-with-Jesus-mood with me!hehe
So even though I had a rough afternoon,I got home nd just knelt down nd let everything out to my daddy King, and I praised Him for it!So praise guys...praise Him for your parents fighting atm, praise Him for the fight ure hving with your bestfriend,praise Him for the rumour you found out was gng round about you, for your nanna going to hospital, for your pet dying...just Praise Him cos He deserves alll praise!
Psalm 105:2 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.
Ok now the point of my blog today is to show you God's amazingness...ok so im a fan of beautiful views, im the kind of person dat just stares in delight at a sunrise or at a colourful sky or at an orange moon..im just amazed by God's perfect creation, and what brought this on today?My dads pictures! Enjoy =)
Gorgeous aye?!
Mela this is a video our school priest told us about in mass...turn your speakers on guys!its adorable!
God Bless XxX
So even though I had a rough afternoon,I got home nd just knelt down nd let everything out to my daddy King, and I praised Him for it!So praise guys...praise Him for your parents fighting atm, praise Him for the fight ure hving with your bestfriend,praise Him for the rumour you found out was gng round about you, for your nanna going to hospital, for your pet dying...just Praise Him cos He deserves alll praise!
Psalm 105:2 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.
Ok now the point of my blog today is to show you God's amazingness...ok so im a fan of beautiful views, im the kind of person dat just stares in delight at a sunrise or at a colourful sky or at an orange moon..im just amazed by God's perfect creation, and what brought this on today?My dads pictures! Enjoy =)
Gorgeous aye?!Mela this is a video our school priest told us about in mass...turn your speakers on guys!its adorable!
God Bless XxX
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