A family =)

hey guys

totally different post from the previous one. but before I begin I would really like to thank you all for your comments and discussions etc xD

Just got home from a Y4J meeting..I must say one of the best...does this mean I jumped and laughed because life is so perfect? *never gna happen-life is never perfect :P)

NOPE,

total opposite...I let out all last weeks emotions,the ones u push down cos people at school cant see u in that state..or because its too stupid to talk about or maybe because you're just naturally closed up...well maybe then u know what I'm talking about.
It started off with me being restless at the very beginning of this weekend,I couldn't socialise well,I wanted to be alone,loss of appetite etc...but today i couldn't take it.i convinced myself to go to y4j to praise, and overcome my UN-sociable mood...but when i got there i couldn't even worship!i had too much on my heart. but luckily for me (and for others =P) god knew what i would feel,and he couldn't bear seeing me (or you) so restless..so he sent a good friend of his...a priest xD I was the first one to go in side Fr.Cefai's room..I closed the door and sat down, and this is how it basically went;

Priest; What would you like to confess?
Me; nothing,I mean, no, you see, I think i want to talk.

embarrassing much?i could have spoken to him for forever,but people awaited his presence,so he sent me off renewed, i actually did confess in the end xD

does dis now mean i was happy cos of my perfect life?

no once again xD

I think i managed to worship too much after my "confession"...like theres such a thing of too much worship, but what i mean to say is that my mind went from me imagining Jesus letting me rest on him, to Him picking up the Eucharist in adoration and smiling!Insomma point being, its OK to not be so hyper after a y4j meeting!feeling worried?left out?your friends leave st.Michael's feeling so hekk cos God touched their hearts and you didn't FEEL* him? Good for them...but u know its OK to go home and have another cry in your own privacy, God could be touching your heart, but He might start from whats stopping you from being loved by Him. Too confusing? I'll explain further; * You not feeling anything doesn't mean He's not touching your heart*

lets take a flower OK? a flower with dead leaves on its stem and some dead petals.then take another flower which is okay,maybe a few scars here and there but on the whole okay. If I had to take care of these flowers and make them look the best they can, which would I manage to take care of without hurting it?

The one with scars...cos I just need to patch up some scars and start working on just giving it water and vitamins,while the other flower would need to be cleaned well first,maybe taking off a petal (god wants you to stop staying with that friend for good reasons) maybe he needs to take off a leaf too, (smoking?drinking?self harm?anorexia?bulimia?self pity?complaining a bit too much?..)
so that flower is gna feel the cleaning a bit more. But its okay,cause no matter how long it takes, God is treating us equally but, is just tackling us individually, because we are individuals xD think i made it more confusing aye xD

So coming to the point of the title,
after Y4J i just said that I'll be going home, and someone asked why, so I explained that i don't feel like socialising with friends and he just says: we're not friends,we're your family.

It really struck me..I mean I have a family ta, when I hurt, someone hurts with me, when I laugh someone laughs with me and the chain goes on. This is us, this is who we're meant to be....couldn't love you all more xxx

sorry if i bored you, blessings,
Amy xxx