Full but yet empty..

A week at soul survivor...one would expect total drastic change once back home...and though God has filled certain holes in my life...some of them are left un-filled...for a reason!i know there's a reason!and they're kind of getting deeper...

Anyway..

I apply to junior college tomorrow..and dls too!!Excitement and nerves!Especially on the course I chose!

Something I shared in the workshop I'm in...
So during a main meeting at SS,i asked god for forgiveness for all the things i needed to be forgiven for,and i needed to forgive myself for..and I felt him ask : "Sorry for what exactly?" So i got a paper and started to list all my sins down...God asked me to hold on to it,so I put it behind my name tag!the next day I lost it...I was really disappointed,I wanted to say sorry to God over and over again!So in the next meeting I let God know what was on my mind,and He told me, "I told you to hold on to it so you could lose it..just so you will realise that I let go of your sins the minute you realised it was wrong and felt shame and asked for forgiveness...."
I was like WOW!That's one of the holes God filled for me...=)

2 comparisons for you people xD
*drum roll please*

So as most of you know we rolled in the mud in England...and at first it was really exciting...it got really fun...then we got really tired,and the mud was going in places we didn't want it to go (not in a rude way)...and then it took ages till we actually got the courage to wash it off,and it took ages!I could have just thrown my clothes away...but I didn't,I showered and after lots of "EWW's" and "Oh my garlic bread's" we managed...and the showers were left really dirty..and the maids had to clean them and it took a while for all the traces of mud to totally disappear...

2 comparisons can evolve from this story....

1) Sin

Let's take drugs and alcohol.In the beginning it's really exciting,you're really into it!and it gets better for a while...then it starts to give negative effects...you get dizzy and dehydrated..throwing up bla bla..things start to go overboard,you're doing things you never wanted to do!So then you decide to stop.You keep doubting whether you can...and when you actually decide to,it takes ages till you get it right,till people stop talking about you..till your parents start to trust you again...so,you want to give up,you can't manage..you're scared....you think that even when you do stop there are things that will never go back to the way they were before...but that's until God cleans them up for you....FOR FREE!!!!

2) God's love

God created us...He made us,and played with us!He was mega excited about us..and we were about Him!!But then we grew into teenagers,God only got in the way..so we got tired of the you can't do this- and you can't do that routine...so we abandoned God,and started doing stupid stuff...God missed every one of us...then we turned back to God...we were so scared,thinking He didn't want us now...we lost our chance!But he hasn't given up on us,he grabs us,all muddy and smelly,hugs us and starts to rinse the sins off!And through all our hurts and moaning, He keeps cleansing us...till we're brand new xD

Sorry if I bored you....Leaving you with tissue blessings,and a runny nose!
xxxxxx