Inspired!

Hey Guys!
So I'm gna start off by thanking Achie, for being the most honest blogger, even though you blogged about your hurts and confusion, it made me think..good-thinking-kinda-thing.Yes Ach through your words of hurt, you inspired me to deepen my search to find me...the real me. Just like Fr.Ray Toledo asked us: Who Am I? And this reminded me of when I still learnt italian at school, and an essay was set,and I remember we had to write bout ourselves. And literally i was in my room,with the paper still blank,tears rolling down my cheek, cause i had no idea what to write, i had no idea who i was, nd i still dont!Someone might say, but you've been going to Y4J for two years,what nothing's changed? Oh a lot has changed,but I'm going to be honest, I only fully gave everything up in january!Nope, your eyes aren't gng mad,only last month did I offer up everything.But I'm going to continue sharing my honest mood with you guys and let you know, that no, it wasn't easy,and still isn't. Not to discourage you, more as to let you know, dat no, God doesnt take away your troubles just cos u gave your life to him,and no, the imaginary wall doesn't just appear to keep satan away, i actually think that satan has found a way through that wall,way up the mountain...in other words, he's a meany!And as to confess,in my last post i mentioned that my troubles have not affected my attitude towards people, I have actually partly failed!Not that I'm not there for people, or I don't smile to anyone, anzi...but im giving off weird vibes, like really weird.And it really hurts me to know I cant be me,because I simply dont know where or who me is.No sorry guys, im not even half way there =P And truely and honestly, I'm on the edge of a cliff, but holding on like nothing before. One might ask why, and then I ask myself why?Well besides the fact that I want to hold on to God with all I've got, i have no idea why im holding on to anything else, is it even necessary to hold on to anything else?All rhetorical questions dont worry =) I really wanna appologise to this guy haha...well he knows who he is, and he knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life, well I haven't been the best friend I'm supposed to be towards him, and so I want you to know, that im really sorry,and will try harder! And to think that one smile can cover up a milion tears, wow...I mean, nothing's going to stop me from smiling, cause im a smiley person with a very loud, annoying laugh (found out today) but when theres a time to show my hurts, I'm going to show my hurts!Today Sara and I walked to Tutzi from PV bus stop, and wow was that a walk!Through Regional road at 7 in the morning, I felt a sudden sample of my everyday life,struggling through everyting, just because the bus routine started an hour after we wer supposed to meet tutzi,but knowing that soon enough we'll arrive, gave us a sense of encouragment,in other words, aiming for something, is better than just being a leaf in the wind, aim for something big and high, way over your capabilities,because through God, there's no limit.

I think I'll shutup now!Sorry for the long, but very honest post...

God Bless You All!!! (Btw sorry but poem will be delayed for a while)

Beautiful aye?I captured this photo on a stormy day in pembroke!Lovely!