a much needed update!

hey guys

illa its been ages since ive blogged,so much has happened and stayed the same!

As people grow,they think, discuss, observe,think twice and have to decide under pressure...
I'm growing, not cause its my bday soon, but you know if ure growing inside..you just know..and well I know im growing,cos im thinking,observing and deciding for myself and not letting others decide for me. We tend to do that as people,we tend to rely on others too much,we tend to be scared of our choice,well we shouldn't, im not, im doing this my way.

Am I confusing you?

anyway, im living for me and not for anyone else, because what i do is my choice, and I'm sick of others trying to be a parent when they're not, especially if they're my age..they think they're so grown up and better than the rest..well they're not, because we're all the same, whether ure on the youth team or on admin, or just a member of y4j, or someone who doesnt go to y4j, to the extent of someone who's an athiest...we are all the same so i would just wish if everyone could get off their high horse and shut up!The looks, the 'it seems like u need prayers', they're absolute crap...we all need prayers and you dont go telling someone you think they need prayers,cos its rude...I mean what, and you dont?

so right, i need my space, i need a break, but no one has any right to think my relationship with god is going down or something happened to me, i mean what the hell? if i needed help i would ask for it, so whoever is reading this, no offence, just know that even if u raise your hands in praise, and u might not smoke,or have sex, there are individuals out there who are better than all of us put together, so its not a competition..and if it is for you, sorry to burst your bubble,
but the game is over...

this was totally in general,so dont go round saying "im sure she meant that for me"...
anyway, god bless you all, and gws vicky xxxxx