Sun and Friends :)

The Snow Awaits Me!

2009-02-04T17:43:00.003+01:00

That beautiful sight that you see in front of you is my Aunty's back yard in Kent..where I'll be spending a week from Friday!I love it!
When I was at work and all the english old couples would come in and buy their english daily newspapers with photos of the snow on the front page, I would ask if they wish they were back home..and they all said no!! When I told them that I was going up to England on Friday they called me crazy!! But I'm not :) I think they're taking the snow for granted! haha how random aye?
Anyway, I don't really have much to say, just maybe the fact that sometimes people need to realise that you dont have to say something about everything...just let people live their lives!!

Insomma I'm off to write back to my australian friend Claire,
talk to you in a weeks time, guaranteed photos!

Amy xXx

Time to settle down :)

2009-01-19T20:52:00.002+01:00

hey guys

sorry for the really maybe, too honest post,but i needed to get it off my chest..
hope you're all okay,and that life is treating you well! I think slowly I'm realising things,life is becoming clear slowly, and it's great...I still have loads to disagree with,but it's no point,it's not going to get me anywhere :)

So today, during my never ending frees, I realised that as amazing and complex as the brain is, its evil.It can cause self-destruction,it's the one part of the body that can cause self-destruction and be blamed: "Dont worry,its all in the brain" It's funny, our brain can cause us to total madness one day..sort of like back stab us...haha moving on!!

School isn't getting easier or anything, and sometimes some people can really bring us down and make it harder to cope, but you know what I'm keeping in mind? A phrase I heard in a film;
No one gets to decide how I feel...

And it's true, and I'm trying to adapt that phrase,and make it my logo or whatever..you should try it!

I'm off to england in 18 days, and I am way too excited!Leaving Malta for a week, you know how good that sounds at the moment? :) Everyone needs their time off...this is mine!

Sorry this post wasn't one of support or encouragment..just my update,and thoughts of the week.
Just a few photos that were taken throughout a great afternoon in Mdina :)

a much needed update!

2009-01-11T15:59:00.002+01:00

hey guys

illa its been ages since ive blogged,so much has happened and stayed the same!

As people grow,they think, discuss, observe,think twice and have to decide under pressure...
I'm growing, not cause its my bday soon, but you know if ure growing inside..you just know..and well I know im growing,cos im thinking,observing and deciding for myself and not letting others decide for me. We tend to do that as people,we tend to rely on others too much,we tend to be scared of our choice,well we shouldn't, im not, im doing this my way.

Am I confusing you?

anyway, im living for me and not for anyone else, because what i do is my choice, and I'm sick of others trying to be a parent when they're not, especially if they're my age..they think they're so grown up and better than the rest..well they're not, because we're all the same, whether ure on the youth team or on admin, or just a member of y4j, or someone who doesnt go to y4j, to the extent of someone who's an athiest...we are all the same so i would just wish if everyone could get off their high horse and shut up!The looks, the 'it seems like u need prayers', they're absolute crap...we all need prayers and you dont go telling someone you think they need prayers,cos its rude...I mean what, and you dont?

so right, i need my space, i need a break, but no one has any right to think my relationship with god is going down or something happened to me, i mean what the hell? if i needed help i would ask for it, so whoever is reading this, no offence, just know that even if u raise your hands in praise, and u might not smoke,or have sex, there are individuals out there who are better than all of us put together, so its not a competition..and if it is for you, sorry to burst your bubble,
but the game is over...

this was totally in general,so dont go round saying "im sure she meant that for me"...
anyway, god bless you all, and gws vicky xxxxx

A Ramble...??

2008-12-06T20:03:00.004+01:00

yep this is most probably a ramble! You guys ever felt like you needed to slap someone to wake them up and make them realise that this is real...that this is actually happening and that there is something wrong...or ever felt really out of it..like you dont belong anywhere? that you have to make these decisions that could really affect you and once you make them,there's no turning back? or that time was flying by too fast, that you were meeting people and forgetting their names...that days were going by without you knowing what was said? ever wanted someone so badly..but never knew what they really wanted so you gave up on liking him/her because "you didnt have a chance"...? ring a bell anyone? ever started crying and couldn't stop until you had no more tears to spare..and thought you were being stupid until you realised that those are the tears representing the past week? ever felt that you wanted to be normal? and not reach some high standards that everyone expects you to? ever wanted to be just you, no questions asked?

well this is me guys..these are all the feelings,tears,wants,needs that i can offer really...
whoever read through it all deserves a hug :)

We're weekend survivors..they're survivors for as long as they live...

2008-11-30T22:30:00.010+01:00

These is the real thing in Nairobi....
and this is us trying to experience what is normal for millions of people around the world...

It worked out quite well, living on rice and lentils for the weekend, drinking water, sleeping in slums, living in one outfit, no deodorant, hoping our slum won't be broken down during the night...creating our own ball games by rolling paper to make a ball, bible studies, discussions etc.,

I must admit, there were times when my pride got the best of me..by being shy of the way i look around bay street etc., but overall the experience was great, we really stuck together through it all!

Referring to the title of this blog, I was thinking, it's true, we survived the weekend, it's great!But what about the people who think of the weekend as another daily challenge, to find a piece of bread or some drinking water?On Saturday we kept reminding ourselves that we'l be eating "tomorrow", but for them there is no tomorrow...They're ones to be called real survivors! Wish there was more I could do, but for now the little things count, then if I'm meant to, I'll help some of these survivors hands-on! (just a dream)

Moving on,
So, Christmas is round the corner, and I really want this Christmas to be different to the rest, I want to do something great, I just have no idea what hehe

NYE is so blank atm, no clue what we're doing yet..not going to some hamallu party where the countdown isn't even heard xD I'd rather stay home!!!

What am I looking forward to this week?

My date wit vicky on friday :)
My stipend&pay
Finding out how much money we collected this weekend!

Anyway, that's all for me,blessings and have a good day at school tomorrow guys =P I'm staying home haha

A rolling marble...

2008-11-12T19:56:00.004+01:00

Hey guys

so funnily enough my last blog came in handy, because I decided that my days were passing without me having time to reach out and pack my ruler...not because I had no time,but because I realised I was placing other things as first priority...and I didn't realise until negative thoughts started popping in to my head, i was in a bad mood and all that...and i was in the library,panicking for a biology test until I said: "Okay, that's it,I need a bible." My friend kept looking at me and asked why a bible would help me, so I explained xD he watched me get some old torn down Jerusalem one,and just flip through it...and I found this in Nehemiah...

"The God of heaven will give us success."

that's my favourite quote, its just i like to perfect the little things,and i believe in success...and sometimes it backfires and leaves me feeling like a real loser,who's not good at anything.
but really I'm not a loser...I'm Gods beautiful marble,who keeps rolling out of his hand,and even though His hand stays there,open, waiting for me to roll back to safety, I decide to keep rolling on, bumping into stones and getting stepped on...so that's me atm, a rolling marble...trying to roll back, I think?

I'm in my rebel stage,where I get tempted to think negative,do the wrong things etc., so basically Im a really struggling marble..

We were in english today,reading the literature book: Of Mice And Men. There was a part which described how these two guys, lennie and john decided to eat beans, and sleep in the dark, on the grass because they liked it, and knew if they went to the ranch,they would hv to work harder. So it got me thinking, have we settled for beans, and grass and darkness? Why? Because it's easier that way...But why should we settle for grass when we could work harder, and get eternal light and a 5-course meal? =)
So,whatever it is,think before you do something,the easier path is the never the best!
Take care guys, god bless xxx
listen to this song,its great!

Are You Using A RULER?

2008-11-09T20:45:00.003+01:00

Have you ever found yourself in the situation where you need to draw a straight line, but you forgot your ruler at home? I get really frustrated when it happens to me...I end up using a paper or a copybook,but somehow the pencil moves up and down,and my hand starts to shake and it just doesn't work out...ever felt like that?

It's the same with God, how many times have we tried to go through something without Him, because we think we're too independent or maybe because we think we can handle it...maybe we prefer doing it OUR way...
well wake up with me guys...we need our little plastic ruler,just as we need our real ruler...the ruler of the world =)

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,and he will make your paths STRAIGHT."
Proverbs3:5-6

Is school getting too much? chemistry,maths, physics, biology or English tests this week? Private lessons,ballet rehearsals?Meetings?Organising an important event?Work?University?

Whatever it is, try carry your ruler around with you...wake up 15 minutes earlier to open your bible and say good morning to God, spend a free in the library journalling,or go say a 2 minute hello to God in the chapel...that's what I mean by carrying your ruler with you! Never say you're too busy;

"But I call to God,
and the LORD saves me.

Evening, morning and noon
I cry out in distress,
and he hears my voice."

Psalm55:16-17.

Something from my bible;

Public prayer is against the law in public schools in the United States.But private prayer cannot be legislated against or banned and is your right. You can pray privately,and you can live your Christian life openly in your public school.

You can't get away from stress completely. Some stress is good for you. But don't punish yourself. Do what you can to relieve some of the pressure. And about those things you can't change...

"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty...I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:11-13.

Have a good week =) God bless you all xxx

We are His people!!

2008-11-02T19:17:00.005+01:00

Hey guys,

just came back from a great treasure hunt in Mdina..and obviously group 4 came first =) hehe joking..but we did win, and I must say I'm quite satisfied!so thanks to all..

So regarding the title, i guess what I shared last meeting seemed to touch me more when I actually said it out loud. And its so beautiful, to see everyone proclaim that we are His people...what I've been praying is that one day, all the world will be standing in awe of God,and proclaiming that too...seems impossible? It's not..it's supposed to be normal, it's supposed to be something you can say any day,any time...but unfortunately its not something you would exactly hear someone shouting out randomly in the street hehe.
You know what worries me? When the world comes to an end and Jesus comes to save HIS people...are we all going to convert because its a must? Because if we don't, we'll die? So whoever is reading this, if you know you still have to take that step to deepen your relationship with God, if you know there's that wrong vice in your life, if you have a bad attitude or if you simply never prayed or believed, will you take this step with me?
I honestly just feel so full of God, so fired up, that I just need to move about, or pray or praise God for who He is, for who HE will always be..because guys, This Is Our God!
wrote this now rly randomly..not a poem, just whats on my heart..

Someday its gonna happen
the world's gna say it
its gonna give in

im yours god,
im a jesus person
and u know what?
im proud..
im proud to be who u called me to be,
i can say it, I am yours alone,
To the rest of the world, will you say it with me?
is today the day lord?
or is it a last minute decision?
will you wait a second longer?
'Cos theres no better time than now
so we'll say it, sing it,
shout it,proclaim it,
cry it, scream it,
fight it,pray it...

We Are Your People....

Gotta be Somebody..

2008-10-26T13:54:00.003+01:00

That's the title of Nickelback's new song. Thank you Elaine for sharing the song with me =)

As sweet and cute and romantic as the words are.. I'm taking the godly perspective xD

So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

are we holding our breath till we meet God?
Are we trying to stay strong?
Are we doing all we can?
Can you look back on your week and be proud of at least one thing?
What are you disappointed about?
Can it be fixed?

HOLD YOUR BREATH GUYS!if you know you're going to hurt the person by saying something, hold your breath, don't say it..
if you're going in a dark room with a guy, hold your breath...and leave...
if someone offers you drugs and u dont want to seem like a baby...hold your breath..say no anyway..its worth it.
If you know you're about to do something like smoke,gossip,criticise, judge etc....hold your breath and stop...

Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Who you thinking about? A guy..a girl? ye fine ure allowed to be soppy and cute....but whoever wrote this has someone missing in their life....God! Our life is in His hands...He's in control...you know what that means?
WE DONT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING =)
But we need to pray about everything, even if its not so important to you, it is to God....give God everything...I personally think he's very well organised=P

And finally,
You can´t give up!
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough

Whatever it is, however impossible it seems, keep going, have faith...cos that diamonds gna shine through one day...could be tomorrow or in 1o years time...dont give up :)

Now enough about my currently most played song hehe...

Basically my future is pretty blurry atm, dont know where im going at the moment, but i think its ok..cos Gods got it all planned out and I just hv to wait =) but prayers could be helpful hehe

Conference was pretty good..got a very positive outcome, and I'm sure everyone appreciated the comments and pats on the back...and honestly I really saw God helping us through it, rob and tine were great..elaine read great...and oh it was so perfect cos we were all doing it for God and no one else!

Should I shut up now? yes....hehe anyway everyone do hold your breath this week, not literally ok? I wouldnt rly like to be the cause of ppl suffocating to death =P
God bless you all xxxxxx

A family =)

2008-10-18T22:55:00.007+02:00

hey guys

totally different post from the previous one. but before I begin I would really like to thank you all for your comments and discussions etc xD

Just got home from a Y4J meeting..I must say one of the best...does this mean I jumped and laughed because life is so perfect? *never gna happen-life is never perfect :P)

NOPE,

total opposite...I let out all last weeks emotions,the ones u push down cos people at school cant see u in that state..or because its too stupid to talk about or maybe because you're just naturally closed up...well maybe then u know what I'm talking about.
It started off with me being restless at the very beginning of this weekend,I couldn't socialise well,I wanted to be alone,loss of appetite etc...but today i couldn't take it.i convinced myself to go to y4j to praise, and overcome my UN-sociable mood...but when i got there i couldn't even worship!i had too much on my heart. but luckily for me (and for others =P) god knew what i would feel,and he couldn't bear seeing me (or you) so restless..so he sent a good friend of his...a priest xD I was the first one to go in side Fr.Cefai's room..I closed the door and sat down, and this is how it basically went;

Priest; What would you like to confess?
Me; nothing,I mean, no, you see, I think i want to talk.

embarrassing much?i could have spoken to him for forever,but people awaited his presence,so he sent me off renewed, i actually did confess in the end xD

does dis now mean i was happy cos of my perfect life?

no once again xD

I think i managed to worship too much after my "confession"...like theres such a thing of too much worship, but what i mean to say is that my mind went from me imagining Jesus letting me rest on him, to Him picking up the Eucharist in adoration and smiling!Insomma point being, its OK to not be so hyper after a y4j meeting!feeling worried?left out?your friends leave st.Michael's feeling so hekk cos God touched their hearts and you didn't FEEL* him? Good for them...but u know its OK to go home and have another cry in your own privacy, God could be touching your heart, but He might start from whats stopping you from being loved by Him. Too confusing? I'll explain further; * You not feeling anything doesn't mean He's not touching your heart*

lets take a flower OK? a flower with dead leaves on its stem and some dead petals.then take another flower which is okay,maybe a few scars here and there but on the whole okay. If I had to take care of these flowers and make them look the best they can, which would I manage to take care of without hurting it?

The one with scars...cos I just need to patch up some scars and start working on just giving it water and vitamins,while the other flower would need to be cleaned well first,maybe taking off a petal (god wants you to stop staying with that friend for good reasons) maybe he needs to take off a leaf too, (smoking?drinking?self harm?anorexia?bulimia?self pity?complaining a bit too much?..)
so that flower is gna feel the cleaning a bit more. But its okay,cause no matter how long it takes, God is treating us equally but, is just tackling us individually, because we are individuals xD think i made it more confusing aye xD

So coming to the point of the title,
after Y4J i just said that I'll be going home, and someone asked why, so I explained that i don't feel like socialising with friends and he just says: we're not friends,we're your family.

It really struck me..I mean I have a family ta, when I hurt, someone hurts with me, when I laugh someone laughs with me and the chain goes on. This is us, this is who we're meant to be....couldn't love you all more xxx

sorry if i bored you, blessings,
Amy xxx

To wear a bikini or not to wear a bikini?

2008-10-12T23:09:00.003+02:00

So I'm expecting disagreements and agreements with what I'm going to post in a matter of minutes xD

Everyone wears a bikini-us girls love bikinis, especially me!The whole world loves bikinis-
since when do we adapt to the rest of the world?

I think a lot of negative points could come out of this-

1) Face it-some Maltese men are a bit disgusting,one look at a girl in a bikini could drive them bonkers.You're probably saying- so what,its not like I know him..but you know what?god does...god loves that guy,so aren't we supposed to love him to?
12When you sin against your brothers in this way and wound their weak conscience, you sin against Christ. 13Therefore, if what I eat causes my brother to fall into sin, I will never eat meat again, so that I will not cause him to fall. 1Corinthians 8:12-13.

2) If wearing short skirts..half tops etc., are wrong because we're giving our body so easily...then what makes a piece of material covering our parts so different?what makes it ok?aren't we god's beautiful temple?...

19Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body. 1Corinthians 6:19-20

3) Going back to the origin of these points- adapting to the world...I mean since when do we adapt to the rest of the world?If we're supposed to be different in everything else, why do we "give in" when it comes to swimming?what if God prefers us covering up a bit more...if Jesus was at the beach with us,would we feel 100% comfortable to walk around in our bikini?

It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age,
When I planned this, did I do it lightly? Or do I make my plans in a worldly manner so that in the same breath I say, "Yes, yes" and "No, no"?

and my favourite:
So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.

4) People with insecurities-does being surrounded by nicer figures on show affect the way they feel about themselves?If yes, why should we be the cause of this effect?why should we sometimes be judged by how we look in a bikini?

No quote for this..but before I make my way to my bed,just wanted to remind you, I'm not calling you bad Christians if you swim in a bikini..I mean I do myself.This is all new to me and I'm just sharing it with you guys.
And lovely guy friends,I'm not throwing botti to anyone ok? I'm so proud to have guy friends like you,and I couldn't ask for better friends,honestly...
just wondering what you're all thinking xD
I'm expecting comments =) Blessings all xxxx

If only XD

2008-09-18T21:09:00.006+02:00

So yesterday..wednesday..everyone was celebrating our last Wednesday night out before school begins!

For me, PV is one of my weaknesses,not proud of it,but I'd rather admit it then try be cool and go and end up doing something I'll definitely regret..XD and I'm really taking God seriously..more than I ever have actually!So I really didn't want to ruin it...but Bett convinced me that it would be OK if we stuck together..and I convinced Elaine...so Bett,Elaine,Achie,Rob and I met up at the millennium chapel first,prayed then made our way to meet the others!Yes,temptations did come my way...but you know what?I really believed God would satisfy me without me drinking excessively!So I had 2 drinks in all,and we danced quite 'modestly' I would say!I was so happy and felt really good about it!

If only everyone tried it the God way....it doesn't mean we have to succeed every time,but at least we could try!

Anyway I wrote this sort of poem XD

I want to please you,
To try and keep you smiling
In everything I say and do.

I want to keep you close,
To be able to hold your hand,
Hold it tight when I need you the most.

I want to show you I can do it,
Without you I don’t stand a chance
Of getting through the night without being stupid.

I want to show you off to the world,
Let them know they could show you off too,
If only they made you their world!

So tonight may you keep smiling,
May you stay closer than I think,
Let me know you believe in me,
And let the world open their eyes and let them see.

Blessings readers xxxxxx

Let Me...

2008-09-10T19:32:00.004+02:00

I'll come to the title soon enough.
There are 3 weeks left for school,which means in 3 weeks a 2-year course begins and ends with a-levels which determine if you're going to university or not.Stressful enough? =)

Last night us school girls reunited on ghadira bay.Not exactly the reunion I had in mind but at least I got to see some of my good friends,and I did laugh towards the end!
Coming to the title..

So,as some of you know 'Let me' is the original name to mine and bett's song, it's basically a cry out to god in pain but trusting him at the same time...a lamentation.

That song is exactly how I'm feeling at the moment,so I'll leave you with the lyrics and I really ask that you pray them,and let God do what He has to do =)

So I'll leave you with a sun burnt face,and a bloated stomach!Blessings!

Can you hear my screams and cries?
I’m calling out to you
Just hold me tight and I’ll be saved

Let me know you still care
You still love me
This time I cant get back up alone
Let me cry out to you
Let it all out, Jesus
I need your help

Can’t you see I’m fading
While pretending I’m fine
I’m not alone, you’re here with me

Let me know you still care
You still love me
This time I cant get back up alone
Let me cry out to you
Let it all out, Jesus
I need your help

Come and find me, I’m lost
Please don’t forget me..

Mr.Ant

2008-09-01T17:30:00.004+02:00

Greetings fellow loved children of God =)

Last week,I was flipping through my metal bible,when I realised a small ant running around between the cover and the pages. I tried carrying him out,but he just wouldnt stay still!I knew that if I closed my bible,he would be squashed...so,with my bible upside down,I'm praying he would fall out,even if he hurt a bit as he landed,but atleast he wouldn't waste away..

And then...a comparison comes to mind!God so desperately wants to save us,but we so humanly stubborn our way through it,ignoring Him,and running away from Him!Then it comes to the point where it's going to hurt a bit but atleast we'll be saved!

Point of this...?
Stop running..stop being scared and for once in your life,will you trust in God?Will you just let Him pick you up and carry you through it?...

So wherever or whoever you are Mr.Ant...God loves you and wants to hold you =)

Blessings and cuddles wished from the olsen twin fanatic xxxx

Amazing song....Carrie Underwood!

A must see video!

2008-08-24T13:39:00.005+02:00

So I have been emailing a christian guy from Georgia this past week. I found his blog,and thought his story was amazing,and he has come so far,and he really showed me that God can do anything if you just let Him take control...

Prayers and blessings sent to Andy =)
http://www.crucialencounter.com/

So I visited one of Andy's friends blogs, and I found this video,which has opened my eyes,and once again given me encouragement,that no matter how much we want to give up,and sometimes do,God never does,and keeps using people to save His people...

It won't let the video appear,so just click on the link I'll soon paste, trust me it's worth it!!
Please comment and give your opinion on the video...

http://www.cbs.com/thunder/player/thunder.php?pid=ZlkVH0nHQBg2Oey2nUlkclKYlGKtk6Ge

Anyway

This week I have also reflected upon the fact that I have brothers and sisters in Christ,struggling all over the world,fighting to live,hungry to know Jesus...I just wish I could meet them...God has introduced me to some already,and I have learnt so much,I just can't wait to meet others!

May God honestly bless all of you,and keep the video in mind!
Blessings,Amy xxxxx

Full but yet empty..

2008-08-21T23:35:00.005+02:00

A week at soul survivor...one would expect total drastic change once back home...and though God has filled certain holes in my life...some of them are left un-filled...for a reason!i know there's a reason!and they're kind of getting deeper...

Anyway..

I apply to junior college tomorrow..and dls too!!Excitement and nerves!Especially on the course I chose!

Something I shared in the workshop I'm in...
So during a main meeting at SS,i asked god for forgiveness for all the things i needed to be forgiven for,and i needed to forgive myself for..and I felt him ask : "Sorry for what exactly?" So i got a paper and started to list all my sins down...God asked me to hold on to it,so I put it behind my name tag!the next day I lost it...I was really disappointed,I wanted to say sorry to God over and over again!So in the next meeting I let God know what was on my mind,and He told me, "I told you to hold on to it so you could lose it..just so you will realise that I let go of your sins the minute you realised it was wrong and felt shame and asked for forgiveness...."
I was like WOW!That's one of the holes God filled for me...=)

2 comparisons for you people xD
*drum roll please*

So as most of you know we rolled in the mud in England...and at first it was really exciting...it got really fun...then we got really tired,and the mud was going in places we didn't want it to go (not in a rude way)...and then it took ages till we actually got the courage to wash it off,and it took ages!I could have just thrown my clothes away...but I didn't,I showered and after lots of "EWW's" and "Oh my garlic bread's" we managed...and the showers were left really dirty..and the maids had to clean them and it took a while for all the traces of mud to totally disappear...

2 comparisons can evolve from this story....

1) Sin

Let's take drugs and alcohol.In the beginning it's really exciting,you're really into it!and it gets better for a while...then it starts to give negative effects...you get dizzy and dehydrated..throwing up bla bla..things start to go overboard,you're doing things you never wanted to do!So then you decide to stop.You keep doubting whether you can...and when you actually decide to,it takes ages till you get it right,till people stop talking about you..till your parents start to trust you again...so,you want to give up,you can't manage..you're scared....you think that even when you do stop there are things that will never go back to the way they were before...but that's until God cleans them up for you....FOR FREE!!!!

2) God's love

God created us...He made us,and played with us!He was mega excited about us..and we were about Him!!But then we grew into teenagers,God only got in the way..so we got tired of the you can't do this- and you can't do that routine...so we abandoned God,and started doing stupid stuff...God missed every one of us...then we turned back to God...we were so scared,thinking He didn't want us now...we lost our chance!But he hasn't given up on us,he grabs us,all muddy and smelly,hugs us and starts to rinse the sins off!And through all our hurts and moaning, He keeps cleansing us...till we're brand new xD

Sorry if I bored you....Leaving you with tissue blessings,and a runny nose!
xxxxxx

Not needed,but WANTED!

2008-08-04T23:01:00.002+02:00

So I came upon one of the cutest videos on facebook!Listen and look...will compare after =)

Yes,you're allowed to cry =P So basically I kind of thought about it this way, the lion being God and the two guys representing us when we come back to God. It's really ironic because today's talk at Y4J was about the prodigal son...anyway,we start to push God out of our life,because we think He's getting in the way right? We can't get drunk or have sex bla bla...basically in the end we run back to Him,just like Tutzi (our youth leader) explained today.And God is so happy when we go back to him,he comforts us and shows us His great love!We usually go back to God in shame,thinking He would have forgotten all about us by now,but in fact He hasn't stopped thinking about us for one second!

Moving on...

Soul survivor in 6 days!I am really excited!Honestly!Today was our last Y4J meeting before Soul survivor,and I really gave it all I could!I opened up to God about everything,and asked him to take me as I am...
He's taken me guys...I am God's private property now,and you all need
permission from Him to borrow me for anything =P haha

Beer fest last night was good, Chinese was grand =D van trip home after took around an hour and a half!How mad aye?We went round all Malta!Then Vik,Bett,Ach and Rache slept over,and this morning bett and ach went to creche,while I slept again,got woken up by rob...then bett and Elaine came back...and we spent the day at my house eating and chilling! Leaving me feel like i just got run over! =)

My to-do list:

Re-do highlights & cut hair.
Go take passport photo for 6Th form applications.
Go wrap luggage.
Go lidl food shopping.
Put beads in hair.
Blow dry on Saturday.
Etc,etc.,

I'll share a poem tomorrow OK?because I'm about to fall asleep now!
God bless you all xxx

People,places and potties xD

2008-08-01T00:33:00.005+02:00

hey guys...my thoughts for the week!

So we went to Comino for 2 days,and I had a great time, I learnt so much,honestly! The scenery was brilliant,i was in awe of God's creation! Even jellyfish struck me with their metre long tentacles xD

So my mum decided to relate how I never wanted to use the potty when I was younger,but always wanted to use the toilet!so I used to get the stool and climb up on to the toilet seat and Voilaaaa...

But...I kind of realised I'm still like that,but in a God way! If God tells me to do something I might try to be independent and do it another way, because I think He'll be prouder of me if I try reach His ways without His help sort of thing...getting me?
Back to the potty story- it would take me longer to pee,until i went for the stool and climbed and stuff....so basically it takes me longer to do something,because I try to do it my own way. And even worse, I usually don't manage without getting mega stressed and frustrated at myself for failing!

So I'm gna paste a bit of a God-diary i keep on the comp..this is last years,but it shows how I don't give God control..

1st September 07

Hi God&co,
What in d world is gng on? Evrytings gng haywire God! I feel like I can’t take control of anything in life, I’ve totally lost grip and I don’t think I can keep holding on, I want to but evrytings just stressing me out!

And then this is me being mega positive xD

9/10/07

I'm lost…I need your loving guidance, I know ure here wit me Lord nd I thank u 4 it!I don’t know wat 2 do so I'm leaving dis in your hands!i hv faith dat ders a reason 4 everything!…..i know Ive got u by my side, never to be alone!Love you xxxxxx

so that's a bit of the real me...=)

not gna end here xD

So today during the workshop in our quiet time,i realised something else =D

I want to be loved,
But I need to love myself.

I want to be forgiven,
But first i need to forgive.

And I want to know you,
But first i need to know myself.

Its quite long this post aye/Sorry!Had alot to say! I hope I didn't bore you..well if anyone is still reading!

So what have I learnt this past week?

1) Give control to God.
2) Appreciate things more.
3) Give more service to others.
4)Comino hotel closes their kitchen at half 9 xD
5) Friends are too special to lose!

So I'll leave you in my 'Pretty Little Rebel' top,pink linen trousers, 2 tired,closing eyes and a cute quote xD

'We turn to God when our foundations are shaking,only to find out that it is God who is shaking them!'

Good night xxxxxx

Another comparison xD

2008-07-20T23:57:00.003+02:00

hey guys

So i realised i haven't compared a live situation to God's love in ages xD
But Comino has inspired me!

So my dad and I were in a dinghy and he was trying to teach me how to control it,to drive and stuff.There were boats all around us,people swimming,choppy sea...But I wanted to try,thinking I was ready!So I started driving it, when suddenly I was about to go straight in a boat!!I freaked,I was really panicked!I just gave my dad the steer thing really quickly,and he had to pull the emergency string xD But the point is, sometimes we think we're ready,we go for it,and when we realise that we're not ready,and things get tough,we turn to our Daddy!We give him control of our lives,but first we all have to realise that we can't control our own lives alone,that's when you can fully give your life to Jesus. Another thing! Ask Jesus if you're ready,only He knows xD

I have a question,that I'm hoping some of you bored readers could answer please. To what extent have you gone to keep secret?And why do we do crazy things like lying our asses off just to hide our little defects and situations from others? Hmmm *thinks*

So a thank you to God for saving one of the fishermen,but the 11 year old boy is unfortunately lost at sea =( his dad saw him float off the raft,but was too helpless to grab hold of him. Keep praying!

Missing Rache!!!hardly any credit to message her!
soul survivor soon!!we have to be at the airport at around 5 in the morning guys!how exciting is that?! =D

Anyway,god bless you all xxxxxx

Hello humans!

2008-07-18T19:56:00.003+02:00

I apologise for the delay, but let's just say the past few weeks have been pretty draining,good and bad!I finally have some time on my hands,and spending the night at home,with a kids film to watch, and a pizza to stuff in the oven xD

I have found time in the past 2 days to finally journal again!Felt good!
Ivan's 18th was yesterday,must say,bloody good party!socialised loads,danced, got cactusized xD (danced on a nice-looking plant,but found out it a cactus was hiding, after getting spiked hehe)

a prayer goes out to the youth team who are in Gozo organising and praying together!may god really inspire them!

and a really loud prayer goes out to the fishing boat and 5 fishermen,including an 11 year old boy,his dad and his grandad, which is lost at sea,and they found one of them dead today.We really must keep them in our prayers!

O level results are out!Very good overall!now decisions,course choice,school etc.,

something I've learnt lately, to be myself more,no matter what,especially with god!I mean I've always found it important for us all to be ourselves,but sometimes you have to experience something to really understand and adapt to your lifestyle.

I'm off and leaving you with cactus needles in my legs,messy hair and a heart for Jesus =)

God bless you all xxx

I will praise you....

2008-07-04T12:06:00.009+02:00

So,
I'm listening to 'Everyday' on Y4J 's My space...and I realised that no matter what,I just have to find comfort in Jesus,instead of picking on other defects in my life,trying to see how I can improve things...when things are falling apart,I'm going to keep praising.

when i think of this, I imagine my self at the end of the world,when Jesus is coming to save us....me standing with my arms in the air,and the whole world is falling into pieces,no solid ground..and just when I think I'm going down with the world...there HE is, my saviour...ready to catch me!But through that all I didn't put my hands down and run for shelter, I just stood there,arms in the air, and with a smile on my face!And that's how we should live life,I'm not saying that when you're upset you should fake smile your way through the day,we're allowed to show that we're upset,plus we do have friends for a reason...but there is ALWAYS something to smile about..and if there's a chance of having a good time,then go ahead and have a good time!

Cheers to Paul who helped me realise this =)

So maybe I'm not going through the best time...and some aspects in life are really sucky atm...but things can be arranged, hearts can be fixed, people can be loved, and most importantly God is always there!

Happy Birthday Paula for tomorrow!love you lots!
Missing pete,and beppe who are in hungary!
And missing maria the most who's back in Norway...!!! =(

So I'm leaving you with a fan blowing my hair away,a cheer leader top,yellow shorts, and a bowl of muesli xD

God bless you all xxxxxx

This is an update of my life xD

Old friend back to visit =)

2008-06-29T16:03:00.005+02:00

So as all of you probably know,Maria, my Norwegian friend is in Malta, till tomorrow =(

But I swear I haven't had such a good time in ages,totally hilarious moments,bringing back old memories,playing the fools, Isle of MTV, sleepovers,swimming xD good times =)

Probably one of the best weeks this summer....besides soul survivor xD

Anyway, I know I haven't updated in ages,but this is why..I had more important things to do =P seriously!I was busy everyday!I didn't even have time to watch OC =D

So this is it for now,enjoy summer,pray for us o'levelers who receive our results next week...!!!

And a high five for the much needed night out last night xD Love you girls xxxxxxxxxxx

God bless you xxxx

Princess night over?

2008-06-19T20:20:00.003+02:00

Ah well I would like to tell you that my princess night was a success,and I really enjoyed seeing everyone and socialising =)

I wish every girl there could feel pretty every day,not only in a pretty dress...because really someone could have the most amazing dress which costs thousands,and be un-pretty inside...

I realised I'm not letting God hold me...i need to be comforted and forgiven,but I won't let him...Must figure this out?! Prayers?

Whenever someone holds me,deep down all I say is that they wont be holding me forever,so I don't embrace that hug...but Gods here forever nd ever,so why not trust Him?I should work on my trusting problems!

There are a lot of things I need to work on....

Gtg to intercession,god bless you all xxxxx

Special Night!

2008-06-18T12:16:00.006+02:00

Today is the day of...

*Drum Roll Please*

MY SOCIAL!!

Yes,I'm extremely excited!Its a princess night..and since we're all princesses..(well I'm talking to the girls atm)....its a special night xD

For all those who don't know what a social is..it's a prom night, basically an excuse for the girls to wear pretty dresses,and do their hair,and for guys to wear suits!!

I've been looking forward to this night for 5 solid years,ever since my sister had hers!And here it is =)

Well I think that this life is truly incredible in all aspects,I mean whatever the situation, there's God, so every situation is amazing..just like our God =)

And I'll leave you with a thought, we all have our different languages,and might not understand each other,but one thing in common between us all (Us&the world) is a smile =D

So keep smiling...it's contagious!!!

God Bless you xxxx

Maria comes in 4 days =D Woooo!!

P.S: These are some cool photos I captured =P

Summer Update!

2008-06-11T23:04:00.006+02:00

Hey fellow aliens who are also raised by humans!

Mmm today!Well went to exiles,and laughed quite a bit,had a water fight,they soaked my dress!!*cough cough ROB cough cough*

I was supposed to go to paulas..but she got sick..so thats a get well soon to Pau!

Had quite a few blonde moments today...what is up with me?Must work on increasing my intelligence level thing!!

You know that situation I had told you about last month,where I'm trying my hardest to change things round,well it's going well...except for the fact that it's not as easy as people think it is,and it's really insensitive for people to just push it out of the way,I mean just because I decided to change a few things doesn't make it A OKAY!!I mean I'm not saying that people should treat me with pity, NOT AT ALL!!! OK fine i get the point,you want me to shut up xD Was confusing myself anyway....hehe

What else has happened lately?Hmmm....*thinks*
Well I found out for myself that honesty is amazing...I mean one minute im really upset over something,I speak to someone and open up and tell them this and that...and the next minute i'm smiling and laughing!Woo high five to honesty!=)

Rache came over for an hour last night,but we had enough time to catch up,so I loved it..love you rachel gatt!!

My social is on wednesday!!SOCIAL!!nail appointments,hair appointments,pampering sessions,transport..AAAA excitement!!!!!!!!

60 days to soul survivor!!!!60!!!!thats like SOON!!we're going back home alienssssssss XD

Maria (my norweigan friend) arrives in Malta in 11 days..on the 22nd of June!...which is even sooner than SS!!!I miss her too much!!I need my pig-out buddy XD

There are 11 days to the 22nd of june,right? =
ok double of 11 is 22,and since today is the 11th,that means there 11 more days till the 22nd...you see guys, I'm smart xD...ISH hehe

That's about it...just a shout out to Krissy,a really sweet girl,who I'm getting to know at the moment...To another Chrissy,who's on a cruise!To Achie who's my richie depositer xD I already shouted out to Pau and Rache....Ohh and to rob,who really entertains me with his comebacks,and who's twin brother is a dog....that's for wetting me =)

Biggest shout out goes to God.for simply being amazing,and taking us back no matter what!Forgiving our everything....being our everything!

I shall leave you with a really funny Krizia top,a hurting stomach,a quiet house,and a doonie's doughnut XD

Confused much?

2008-06-09T23:09:00.004+02:00

I really appreciate your advice guys,thanks for your time and patience!
Ok i tried..but it only backfired I suppose!I kinda want to give up..and there are other things bugging me...!Why?I dont know...And as close as you think you are to a person,sometimes you're to scared to open up,and open up a fresh wound...just incase you kinda fudge things up again?is anyone getting me?but then again I need to open up..but what if no one understands?Why things dont go away with the click of a finger,I'll never know!Rhetorical questions.....

Yes, I'm a very confused person at the moment,and no,I'm not being depressing...because I had a good day,had the time to catch up with paulaaaa!and had a great day!Love you pupaaa xxxxx

And Italy lost...but I got to sing mine and Bett's song for the first time since the live-in!I missed it!..and it actually counts for my current situation..so thanks bett for the lovely pianoness-And Rache for the good beginners luck billiards game XD

So you see,I'm a happy girl...I mean everyone has their doubts and problems inside,no?I just hate the fact that it can really affect my mood at the time..Amy can't be boring and moody XD

So I think pushing guys in the pool is hilarious!haven't played that "game" in AGES!So I really enjoyed it!Maaa pau and I walked from st.julians to bett's house..WE DIED!Really eventful day...must learn to open up more often...

byeee xxxxxxxxxx

Ahh well..summer?

2008-06-05T19:43:00.004+02:00

What is up with Malta weather?Since when does it rain in June? Oh I know!Ever since we decided to ruin the environment!!PXXT
Well a high five goes to God for his rescue plan yeterday at Exiles...those who weren't there basically missed out on a huge wave and people swallowing water,bev and bett being dragged on the rocks...ben and rob trying to help them..and rob scraping his side while ben couldnt breathe properly! Basically I got extremely worried,but i kept it in,I mean a fuss is the last thing they needed,right?

I don't really care if anyone reads this aymore...atleast God does,and apparently this foreign Christian Blog, weused2bu. The link is on the side bar,check it out,pretty cool =)

Summer has officially started...im liking it..except for a few downs,actually quite a few downs..but I'm gna concentrate on smiling!

Has Jealousy entered my life?Or is it worry of loss? I know I'm confusing you,but well,I am confused...=O

Today we all played Twister at Bett' house,now I know why it's called Twister for real...I mean WOW!Left hand this right leg that..before you know it,you're down,flat on your ass...

just like everthing in life,no? (yes,another of my stupid comparisons) I mean you get twisted in things...: Drugs,smoking,drinking,lust,sex,bad company,obsessions/addictions...think of it this way,satans spinning the arrow...he's just picking something to twist you around his finger!Sometimes we think we're cool and we keep getting twisted till the end,cause we think we can manage..but we soon fall down,crying out to God..am I making sense?I'll shutup now xD

I have a question..as christians is it OK if there are certain people you just can't stand simply because of their character..or fakeness....Not without reason I mean,these people actually just bug you because of the way they act in front of others...I'm confuseddd

I'm leaving you wth yellow shorts,a mosquito bite,and an apricot in hand...
OH
and a confused brain with teary eyes =O

A new beginning..=)

2008-05-26T17:49:00.008+02:00

Hey guys!
Summer begins in two days!!!!Can't believe it,after all this studying and stress,it's actually coming to an end =) which is absolutely super!!!So this weekend was really interesting,it involved sobbing and fights and laughter and swimming and fajitas and ice cream..friends and sun burn...but one of the most important high lights of this weekend was the fact that I have decided what I want to do with my life-no matter how hard it can get..I'm hanging on!!And the picture says it all- Pediatrician...for all of you who don't know what that it..it's a children's doctor!So has Achie btw,and that's really cool,God's really working amongst us!Love you Ach!=)
Anyway so a pediatrician is someone I've wanted to be ever since i was really little,and then missionary work it is..but that comes in time...I'm leaving it in Gods hands!!So thank God for this weekend,no matter how much i sobbed,I'm praising Him for it =)

So guys my back is peeling..BADLY..its all pink and yaqqq!!!hope it gets all normal,because I'll be spending loads of time in the sun soon! Lately I've been getting really close to one of the most amazing people you can ever meet- Sofia Mifsud...(my chippy), she has been the carrot in my carrot juice =P And I'm shouting out to her atm,as a thank you for everything =) *WAVES* I just found a really funny video that Vicky made me for me for my birthday..here's the link; (love you VIKKK my chicken nugget!!)
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=32888705808

Congrats goes to Ben for passing his driving test,He had faith and tadaaa..proset ben =) xxxxxx

Anyway,I shall leave you with a really ugly back,a gonzi t-shirt, and a grumbling stomach xD
God Bless you all xxxxxxxx

SORRY!!!

2008-05-21T18:48:00.006+02:00

As you can see from the title,I'm extremely sorry guys!yes I've drifted apart from everything...un-willingly!i can't go in much detail about why or what caused this..but all I know is that after today...one of the best girls in my life showed me that things have to change...and so we did something about it..and we're going to continue doing something about it!and no matter how hard its going to get,I'm going to keep on!because nothing can be worse,i cant lose more in my life!!its not worth it...
All I ask is for your genuine prayers please =)
This is not an emo post or anything...I'm not some depressed person atm...
So basically in the past two months that i haven't posted, I turned sixteen,I have sat for most of my o'levels,I have missed my school friends,I have gotten terribly sun burnt,i have jumped in the sea twice,I have learned to like green peppers,I've worried a lot,I have missed rache terribly,I have stressed so much,I have fallen in love with the song: Dance like there's no tomorrow by Paula Abdul, I found out how much i love my girls,I have learned to appreciate life so much,I have made important decisions,I have celebrated my birthday with some of the most important people in my life in the best way ever,in other words I have learnt and experienced so much!
guys I love vicky...hehe i know its random but i just love her!!yesterday I spent the day at pitch with my school friends..and i hvnt relaxed so much in ages!!I've had the best start to summer,even though I'm really sore at the moment hehe.today was just amazing,and I haven't been so open with someone since last year!shes my amazing pupa..and u know who u r xD

Sorry for everything guys and a thank you goes to Bett.....xxxxxxxxxxxxx
God bless you all
Enjoy my fave song atm!!! =)

Being Ready!

2008-04-15T14:40:00.006+02:00

Hey guys!
Thought I'd take a break from studying, and post something small.So basically I realised how ready we have to be for god's little challenges.To be more specific,I'll give you an example =)
So I was at Y4J last saturday...and basically half way through worship they started to sing Indescribable (Chris Tomlin) !I had a very good friend of mine who used to attend these meetings, and we used to love this song and would just sing it together all the time!So at that moment I said: "God,what do I do to get him/her back to you?" and I felt that i should message this friend and let him/her know...so I said sumting like : "Hey,we're singing Indescribable at the moment!Remember our favourite song?!So I thought of you,and wanted to let you know that God knows u and loves you cos he placed u in this world..love you x x x x "
And this person messaged back asking why i thought of him/her..insomma d messaging went on.But what I wanted to say was..I asked God what HE wants me to do, He answered me..and I did it!Ok it might not always be so easy...but it's possible!From the tiniest most stupid decision to the most important decision in your life,ask God what HE wants you to do...not what you want to do!
Gna type something from my bible:
Martin Luther once said, "I've got so much work to do today, I'd better spend two hours in prayer instead of one." Got tons of homework? Feel overwhelmed and rushed? Maybe the best way to get everything done is to stop and pray. Nehemiah was a man of action.He became governor of Judah and quickly got everyone to work building the walls of Jerusalem.But the first thing Nehemiah did "for some days" was to mourn and fast and pray: Nehemiah 1:4. If you're going to get any job done well,you need God's help.The time you take to pray before you act isn't wasted.It's the most important time of all.
So basically just pray before you do something,no matter how stupid it might sound to you...God will appreciate it =) Going to leave you with the song indescribable..rly cute video and another song of Desperation Band called Ready Now, that I also fell in love with...the words r gorgeous!=D x x x Enjoy!God bless you all!
p.s: For the second song, especially...just relax close your eyes and really pray the song..amazing xD

My last day at school!

2008-04-09T20:19:00.006+02:00

That's 1996 ok guys? =) hehe
So basically I had rag day today!And I still can't believe it's all over!So basically we all met in Sliema at half 7ish,and some of my friends went to buy alcohol while I gladly stuck to nutella and Diet coke xD hehe.Insomma then we went on the beach and posed and laughed...till about 9.Went to school and prepared for our lovely, awaited rag day!We all had the t-shirts on, and our funny costumes for our dances!I was Ginger Spice! =P And we all bonded maa on the last day, then did our thing, in front of the whole school, read the poem, some of us cried, some of us laughed.Played Prisoners against the teachers, and Our headmistress joined in. Really funny game!Did our line dance....cried...hugged...said bye to some teachers...mr.camilleri made me cry,but i kept it in till after he left xD cos im cool xD haha...Then we got a cute speech from our assistant head...and we made our way to avenue!When we finally got there the place was empty, so avenue was ours =P except for the waiters anyway hehe so the music was full on and we really enjoyed ourselves...ate..had our breaks outside haha..then went on the rocky beach and laughed our asses off!I got really close to friends I probably won't be seeing at all...which kinda sucks!We should really start to appreciate things before they're too late...I mean I really cried today...and hekk maa I'm gna miss my girls loads!We've been 2geder for 12 years!Such a small school,so we were like a small family!Tomorrow we have our mass,then we're going out together!So basically I wanted to tell you about my emotional but exciting day guys =)
Thanks everyone of you...for making me smile when I was down, and piss in my pants when it was really un-expected..thanks for foaming me (yes they foamed me) and thanks for being just you, because I am who i am today cause of you!!! Love you all xXx

One of my comparisons =)

2008-04-03T23:53:00.003+02:00

Hey guys!
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but as some of you know, I have O'levels this month, so I'm a bit tight with time!But I have made time for a blog tonight!hehe
So basically today, after school my mum stopped at greens and asked the butcher for left over ham/meats and she bought two cans of dog food.When I saw her coming towards the car, i was like HUH? we don't have any pets at home xD hehe!But I soon found out we were off to the dog sanctuary in Pembroke!And insomma we went,and there was the guy who takes care of them, and he was telling us about how mepa doesn't want him to keep this place,and like basically these dogs are all abandoned dogs,found in the streets,and he just built a couple of rooms near the sea, and a gate round.And they're threatening him and stuff!And this guy was there, cleaning up all their shit, feeding them, its all voluntary work and he has two of these made shelters in Malta...and he seemed really upset and worried!So I was thinking...just imagine we were the dogs instead, and Gods' taking care of us, not getting anything in return but shit really..so its all out of love!and like there are people,things, and mostly satan trying to ruin things,trying to break down the shelter so we won't be protected anymore...and God (the guy) keeps on fighting with all he can just to keep us safe, and He's not going to give up on us, cos He loves us OK? =D No matter what we do, no matter what we say, He's going to want to clean us,feed us and keep us safe!So as encouragement guys,when you feel tempted,or when you know you're going to do something wrong...turn direction,don't face the gate, face god...walk towards the closed room with food, not the cold,rusty gate!I know its hard, TRUST ME!I'm telling you this, cos i fell for temptation last weekend!And I'm trying to turn my direction...we can do it guys! Praying for all of you!if sum1 needs a chat or sumting, let me know!
God Bless XxX

Short update!

2008-03-28T19:35:00.002+01:00

Hey!

Ahh so much has been going on! It's pretty crazy! Decisions..bad moods,good moods, confusion, loss of love, consciousness, boyfriends..or shall I say loss of boyfriends hehe, future, studying, boredom,worrying, smiling,temptations, I think you get the picture insomma...but I must say, through all these emotions/thoughts there are some people, who I just long to meet cause of the way they cheer me up, or know just what to say!You know who you are =) Well the hike on Wednesday, was great...funny game xD really enjoyed it!Some funny photos, which are uploaded on my facebook profile ok? My new ambition search, is getting more confusing than I thought it would, but it's cool =D I dont have anything to say today, just to remind you that God loves you soo much! teehee..

Thanks for being there for me....rly appreciate it =D mwaa xxxx

New ambitions?

2008-03-23T23:17:00.004+01:00

Ahh guys...today I spent a day analysing my life, and where my life's going....and yes I've become a bit paranoid, but I have come up with two new ambitions!

Ambition 1) To find the real me!
Who Am I? Like seriously, how well do I know myself? Do I trust myself? Should I trust myself? How well do I know my weaknesses? How well do i know my positive aspects? Where do I stand with people, family, friends, best friends, and most importantly, God? Who am I becoming? Am I changing? Am I going the right direction? Do I truly love myself? Who do I look up to? What genre of music do I like? What are my fears?

Questions I've been asking myself all day...they got me thinking, a lot! And my conclusion, I hardly know myself!!!! All I know is that I'm a perfectionist, i hate being indecisive, I like to be organised, I'm scared of losing someone I love, I'm scared of ending up alone, I'm following God, I like to adapt myself with different people, I'm sensitive, and that I'm scared of the dark and cockroaches. There could be a couple of more things...but not really important!

Ambition 2) To Accept my Imperfections!!!!
I mentioned that I'm quite a perfectionist before, and well, lately more than ever.I'm even getting emotionally unstable about them.Even the slightest imperfection,even though I KNOW and agree that no ones perfect, let alone me, it's just everything I do, everything I am, I want it to be good,I want it to be accepted, I want God to like it, I want my family to agree, and I want my friends to like it too. If I do something ,I want to do it well. And if something doesn't go well, I feel really guilty, and beat myself up over it!Even the slightest tiniest, most minute situation!From reading in mass to my figure. Yes, I know, you're probably all saying. "huh?" she has a totally imperfect figure, and such an imperfect relationship with God. And no one's perfect, as I said before, but some more than others, I'm not top rated, but I'm trying okay? I actually opened up bout this fully with a best friend of mine...for the first time today xD I'm honestly a perfectionist at heart,I try not to show my disappointment so much usually...
Anyway I think I'll stop here...sorry if I bored you,but I felt I should blog it!
God Bless You All, and you're all free to comment and criticise=P
P.S: This is d best video I found of this song,the words are the best, Stellar Kart- Finish Last =) Enjoy!

2008-03-22T12:01:00.001+01:00

Jesus' Face!! Be amazed!

Sorry?

2008-03-21T23:25:00.005+01:00

So as most of you know, today we all watched the Passion of the Christ at Y4J. And the funny thing is, that I kept learning something new from various scenes. For example something that might be really obvious for some of you, and others not so obvious. You know how in the bible it says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made, and so I'm usually caught thinking about this beautiful-or-not thing, and I usually convince myself that God thinks im beautiful...but just God.But in the film, when Jesus told Pilate these words: "Whoever hears the truth, hears my voice."
I was like wait!So not only does God think we're all beautiful/handsome but it's true!I mean seriously, whoever you are, you are beautiful or handsome! Yes YOU!! =D *Feel special =) *
Anyway,coming to the title of this post: "Sorry?" Yes guys, that's a confused sorry!Well every time I saw them whip Jesus, and also in the scene where he was crucified, i kept saying "im so sorry, im so sorry" and i dont know why!I dont even know if its a good or a bad thing!Every bad thing that I've done, was just coming to mind,and i kept feeling bad!I mean he died for me, he suffered so much!and how am i paying him back?by sinning?!Even though that was the reason of his death....but hekk im a bit confused atm!
We just saw the face of GOD ta guys! There was the replica of the shroud, brought from St.Patricks...and were we all amazed or not!I sure was =D
Anyway so today I wrote something...its nothing much, but it basically shows what im feeling! Enjoy...and I'd like to thank some of you for being simply amazing!!! May God Bless you all!!!! =D

My Hero =)
Your love for me, so brilliant Lord,
I can now see, your grace shine through me,
Your son, he has paid
For my sorrow to fade away.
And through the tears and the troubles,
I can now truly say,I am okay!

Nothing compares to you,Lord.
Nothing compares to the love you have for us,
You will never leave me, alone,unloved and ignored.

And now I'm smiling through my day,
And I can honestly say,
This smile's for you, my King!
It's one of those, that shines, just for You!

And if it decides to disappear,
I'll remember, that I'm so beautiful to you,
Made with thought and love, so true!
And a place in my heart for you to make new!

You are my special Hero,
and I am so in love with You!

Let it all out

2008-03-18T23:50:00.003+01:00

Hey guys, yes I know it's been ages, and I was speaking to Kai bout this, I just had to hv time to reflect ok xD So let me try look back to this past week, well basically I'm really happy cause i started going to the gym, and even though I'm all sore, hopefully it will be worth it in the end xD and it's the same with life, get sore guys ok? it will be worth it! Umm on Saturday, at Y4J, I basically wasnt feeling too well in the beginning so i just drank water and sat on a chair alone in the kitchen, then when i felt a bit better I went and sat near brooks (my love =P) lol and rache joined us later, and we were being our fun selves, and made the best out of our weird mood =) insomma then Rache,Vik,Sara and I went to hv dinner at sunrise, and had a good chat, and we laughed a bit =) and rache's lovely boyfriend Duncan, came for her, and we just ended up invading his car without asking for a lift xD how rude we are aye?hehe and we had the most hilarious ride home, EVER!I was seriously gna piss guys, nd for those who know me, know dat I seriously wud hv pissed xD which reminds me, i dont think i ever told u my funny story aye? so i had met duncan once, and insomma when some ppl were slumming at bay, duncan thought i was slumming with them ( he didnt know the rules) and he called me at like 3 i the morning while i was sleeping in my bed =D and he was like: nista nkellem lil Rache pls? nd i said: umm jiena mhux rache, wrong number! insomma i kept insisting dat he dialled the wrong number, and after a few mins, it clicked!i was like waitttt ure duncan!and he was like yes! and i said sorrryyyy but im not with rache!and insomma it was rly funny cause when i hung up, everything came back to me!hehe *blonde moment*
anyway back to my weekend, then I got home safely, even though I was shouting: HAWN HA MMUT whenever he was gng rly fast lol and then sunday came along!woke up for mass, and at 12 i was down in the fields, for our nice picnic...stayed with pau nd pete and had our teeny weeny funny chats hehe then others came nd pau and i visited a friend xD insomma it was a funny day, and at night, depression fell, and i was in a bit of a mood, but my girls were there for me, and we had a long chat! thanks =) and what do u know? God knew just how to cheer me up, he gave me my bestfriend back! I couldn't stop smiling after that! so thank you daddy king!Patience is wow...insomma so basically today i woke up with vik making noises hehe, went to gym came bk, showered nd studied, and here i am =Dbasically, i hv nothing out of this world to blog bout! oh noy wait, i do xD GOD haha ah yes and at the picnic, at night, Achie,Brooks,Chrissy,Glenn and I lied down on the grass looking up at the moon, listening to Me and Jesus of Stellar Kart!it was so cute nd relaxing! and i just wanna thank God for giving us a moon to just stare at xD and for natural light of course!hehe
nd before i leave you with a vid, I want to remind you all that even if ure thinking your lifes a mess atm, its all perfectly organised actually xD
The title of this post, is also the title of this song =) Enjoy relient K!
God Bless you all xxxx

Struck down, but not destroyed!!!!!!

2008-03-05T15:20:00.006+01:00

Hey...today has been one long, emotional day!Yes, school leaving preparations,rag day,our lady of sorrows presentation,class photo etc., I must say that I personally can't wait to leave my school!And in my opinion, they can't wait to get rid of us too =P But anyway life goes on xD
So basically the title chosen is from 2Corinthians 4:9..and it really shocked me (in a good way)...so I'll tell you all about it! =) I was reading the "Real Life" section on brio (http://www.briomag.com/) and I saw this written on one of the articles: Struck Down but Not Destroyed
And basically this is the story found, it's really interesting so read!You'll learn to appreciate life more!
Struck Down but Not Destroyed by Katarina McIntosh as told to Ashley Boyer
I live in Greensburg, Kan., a small town of about 2,000 people. On May 4, 2007, a group of about 30 students from our school would be competing in the state forensics tournament with the largest team in years. We all got on the bus and headed for Salina, a city four hours away. Little did we know what we’d find when we returned the next day.
My mom had been at Bible study a few weeks before and had shared a verse that had spoken to her, 2 Corinthians 4:8-9. “We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” She had no idea how fitting those verses would become two weeks later.
After what felt like weeks of being on the bus, we arrived at the hotel. Our teacher, Mrs. McMurry, called her husband and informed us of a tornado warning in Greensburg. If you live in “Tornado Alley,” this is no big deal. Tornado warnings happen all the time; you go to the basement and chill for a bit, then come back up and go on with life. Nobody was really worried.
Back in Kansas . . .Back home in Greensburg, my mom made some snacks and joined my dad, my little brother, Tyler, and his friend Trevor. They noticed the siren going off and headed to the basement, never bothering to turn on the news. They turned on a movie to pass the time until the warning was over.
Back at the hotel, I knocked on my boyfriend’s door and mentioned the tornado warning. He’d been watching the news, and it looked bad. All of us began to panic when we realized there was no cell phone reception in Greensburg. The leaders came out in the halls with us and tried to call their families as well. We’d all been watching the news, and we knew that a tornado had been spotted; so far it looked as if it was headed toward Greensburg.
Back home in Greensburg, my mom noticed something that had never happened before. “Gene,” she asked my dad, “are your ears popping?” The wind began to blow hard, and the doors of our porch began to slam. Glass began to break upstairs, and my parents started to pray. They asked the Lord to protect them and put His angels around them.
The electricity went out, but my dad had grabbed a flashlight. Suddenly, the window in my Dad’s study broke out! Dirt and debris flew inside, swirling around the room. My dad threw couch cushions over my brother and his friend to protect them. The dust filled the air until my dad could hardly breath.
Back at the hotel in Salina, Mrs. McMurry called everyone into her room. More news—Greensburg had been hit. We were four hours away, and there was nothing we could do. One thought floated around in our heads: By tomorrow, we may be the last people from Greensburg alive.
Storm SurvivalFinally, the storm died down. My family thought they heard someone calling for help. My dad opened the door to the basement, and they all stepped out. There was glass and live wire everywhere. With the flashlight to guide them, they came into our living room. “Oh, the piano is still there, so is the couch,” my mom noticed. Stepping over the rubble, they crawled out the hole in our front door.
When my parents got outside, my mom looked across the street where my friend Alexis lived, but she couldn’t see their house.
Soon a paramedic from Greensburg came up to them. “Is everyone in your family accounted for? Are you all OK?”
She told my parents to walk across town to Davis Park. Carrying our two dogs, they headed that way. When they had left the house, they figured they would be back that night, and since they couldn’t really see how bad the damage was, they never bothered to grab anything else.
In Salina, we were finally getting in touch with family. I had accidentally left my cell phone at home, and nobody else could get a hold of my parents. But God gave me a peace, and I knew somehow that my family was fine. What I began to worry about most was everyone else.
I went back up to the rooms and began to pray in a way I’ve never done before. I walked through the hallway and said a silent prayer for each person I passed, asking God to take away their fear and give them peace. I went by the leaders and asked God to give them strength to comfort all the kids they were in charge of.
The AftermathIn Salina, Mrs. McMurry said the bus would leave for Greensburg as soon as possible. We had canceled our state competition. Finally, a leader came up to me and told me my aunt had called them and said my parents were fine. They found a ride to a nearby city, where they would spend the night at a shelter.
We got to Hutchinson, a city on the way to Greensburg, and we were dropped off at the mall. I was told to wait until my Aunt Deanna came to get me. A little later, I saw my older brother Brian. He lives three hours away from Hutchinson, but he’d already driven down.
Just a little while after I got to my aunt’s house, my family arrived. You can imagine how happy we all were to see each other and tell our stories. Soon my oldest brother, Steve, and his wife, Maureen, flew in from the Washington, D.C. area to be with us. It was wonderful to all be together.
Before we knew it, my dad had somehow gotten an interview with “The Today Show” and every other news network after that. We went back to Greensburg to see what was left. My parents cried when they saw our house, not so much because of how damaged it was, but because it was the only one on the block still standing. With all their prayers, God had saved most of our house. For quite a while after that, we would go back and load stuff from our house into trucks to take back to my aunt’s to clean.
You can watch news and look at pictures, but nothing, I mean nothing, can really show you the damage to our town. When the rumors were over and the facts finally came out, we learned it had been an F5 tornado, 95 percent of the town was destroyed and 12 people died.
Within 24 hours, there were organizations from all over trying to help people. We weren’t real worried about our things, because we all understand that stuff can be replaced, but our family can’t be. We couldn’t believe how kind people were and how many huge donations and help we received from all over. Our family received letters from as far as Florida, Arizona, California and Montana. Most are from people we’ve never met.
Not DestroyedOne of the days we went back to Greensburg, on the side of our house—what my friend Charlotte and I jokingly referred to as “my pile of rubble”—I spray-painted the words “Struck down but not destroyed” and “2 Cor. 4:9” underneath. It became a way for people to recognize our house, because when all the street signs and all the homes are blown away, it’s hard to find your way around town.
If you don’t believe in the power of prayer, then take a look at the only house standing on the 300 block in Greensburg, Kan. Praying saved all of it and the people in it. All of us in Greensburg know that even though we’re hard pressed on every side, we’re not going to be crushed; sometimes we get perplexed, but we won’t be in despair; many of us are persecuted, but we’ll never be abandoned; we may be struck down, but we aren’t destroyed, because God is with us!
Copyright © 2008 Focus on the Family. All rights reserved. International copyright secured.
I'll leave you with this video including pictures of the aftermath of this F5 tornado.God Bless You All X

Dilemma?...I think not =)

2008-03-01T12:31:00.008+01:00

Heya..
So all those wondering how life's been treating me, just know, that mr.life is mean AND nice at the same time...I mean even when everything's going wrong, I'm still hekk helping people and stuff...and that's amazing!I mean for those who know me, I'm the type of person who enjoys helping where possible,and I think God's trying to show me something, I'm not sure what it is yet, but I know that there's something behind all of this confusion! I'm holding on xD Lenten Talks are over, and I must say, they were brilliant! Talks, sound, dance, mime, poetry, songs, videos, effects, adoration...everything =P And that reminds me, the mime was like wow...we all really enjoyed it!I felt so alive...we were all praying throughout, and I'm telling you guys!!PRAYER IS AMAZING! So many new people found God this week, and Zoe and I ministered to these 3 girls...who are constantly in my prayers!And I really enjoyed learning and discovering new stuff this week! So Glory to God for everything He's done this past week! Sorry I haven't posted the poem, but I'm having doubts about it...teehee xD Ok so Matt told me something, you know the video of Eric Clapton singing Tears in Heaven that I posted about 2posts back, well I didn't quite know this amazing background of the song, untill Matt kindly opened my eyes =P "Eric Clapton wrote that song on heroin because he was in a depression,he wrote that song locked in a room, drugged with just a bed a guitar and a gun." Quoting Matt =) So basically, just to let you know guys, even in the worst points in your life, when you feel there's nothing to live for, nothing to keep you going, you keep going anyway!A blind step of faith guys!You get back up, even with those wounds so deep, even with your vision so blurry, and the road all bumpy...just remember God is at the end of the road, arms wide open, ready to welcome you!We're all gna manage ok children of God? Even if your friends have ditched you,even if your family is falling apart, even if you're abused or bullied, even if you're having trouble with food, even if you cut everyday cos you have no one to talk to!and even if you're heartbroken so badly,that you don't even see yourself getting out of it this time...You're gna manage....cos Jesus died for YOU, YES YOU!!And He's with you every step of the way...carrying you through it ok? Yes, guys I'm convinced, and I can really picture us all struggling towards the end of the road, all with different wounds...but all helping eachother through it, and God sending his angels to wipe our cuts, and hold our hand for support...and God going from one person to another, whispering some words of encouragment and hugging them tight..aaa im imagining this and smiling to myself xD And one last thing, so you know yest the talk was about changing the world, and Matt sent me this song of Nickelback, and it's about how different people changed the world because they had faith...and if we all cared then the world would be different! Basically there's this written at the end of the video that I'm going to post:
"Never doubt that a small group of committed ppl can change the world,indeed it is the only thing that ever has."
And also remember, ARK ; one Act of Random Kindness at a time. Enjoy the amazing song, and God Bless you all!!!!!!!!!! I'm always here if anyone of you needs a chat ok? =) Bye bye XXX

P.S: Thanks Ach for the hug post, loved it!And the 20-second thing was just funny...Thank you for being a great friend, along with Zoe,Kai,Pau and Vicky who were rly there for me yest!Love you all xxxx

Inspired!

2008-02-25T23:57:00.005+01:00

Hey Guys!
So I'm gna start off by thanking Achie, for being the most honest blogger, even though you blogged about your hurts and confusion, it made me think..good-thinking-kinda-thing.Yes Ach through your words of hurt, you inspired me to deepen my search to find me...the real me. Just like Fr.Ray Toledo asked us: Who Am I? And this reminded me of when I still learnt italian at school, and an essay was set,and I remember we had to write bout ourselves. And literally i was in my room,with the paper still blank,tears rolling down my cheek, cause i had no idea what to write, i had no idea who i was, nd i still dont!Someone might say, but you've been going to Y4J for two years,what nothing's changed? Oh a lot has changed,but I'm going to be honest, I only fully gave everything up in january!Nope, your eyes aren't gng mad,only last month did I offer up everything.But I'm going to continue sharing my honest mood with you guys and let you know, that no, it wasn't easy,and still isn't. Not to discourage you, more as to let you know, dat no, God doesnt take away your troubles just cos u gave your life to him,and no, the imaginary wall doesn't just appear to keep satan away, i actually think that satan has found a way through that wall,way up the mountain...in other words, he's a meany!And as to confess,in my last post i mentioned that my troubles have not affected my attitude towards people, I have actually partly failed!Not that I'm not there for people, or I don't smile to anyone, anzi...but im giving off weird vibes, like really weird.And it really hurts me to know I cant be me,because I simply dont know where or who me is.No sorry guys, im not even half way there =P And truely and honestly, I'm on the edge of a cliff, but holding on like nothing before. One might ask why, and then I ask myself why?Well besides the fact that I want to hold on to God with all I've got, i have no idea why im holding on to anything else, is it even necessary to hold on to anything else?All rhetorical questions dont worry =) I really wanna appologise to this guy haha...well he knows who he is, and he knows how much he means to me and where he stands in my life, well I haven't been the best friend I'm supposed to be towards him, and so I want you to know, that im really sorry,and will try harder! And to think that one smile can cover up a milion tears, wow...I mean, nothing's going to stop me from smiling, cause im a smiley person with a very loud, annoying laugh (found out today) but when theres a time to show my hurts, I'm going to show my hurts!Today Sara and I walked to Tutzi from PV bus stop, and wow was that a walk!Through Regional road at 7 in the morning, I felt a sudden sample of my everyday life,struggling through everyting, just because the bus routine started an hour after we wer supposed to meet tutzi,but knowing that soon enough we'll arrive, gave us a sense of encouragment,in other words, aiming for something, is better than just being a leaf in the wind, aim for something big and high, way over your capabilities,because through God, there's no limit.

I think I'll shutup now!Sorry for the long, but very honest post...

God Bless You All!!! (Btw sorry but poem will be delayed for a while)

Beautiful aye?I captured this photo on a stormy day in pembroke!Lovely!

Staying strong!

2008-02-24T11:36:00.003+01:00

Hey flower pots =D
I'm sorry I haven't blogged in practically ages, but I've had a lot going on, and by that I mean, not good stuff. But hey I'm keeping my head high,my smile on and my words of faith going...because that's what being a Christian is all about no? Holding on to God's promises, and not going in one depression because something didn't go your way...I used to be like that, I used to isolate myself and just fake smile to everyone who didn't know what was really going on inside my head,but ever since the 12th of January,illalu even though things are going wacko xD It hasn't affected the way I treat others,cos i feel so new...God is truly amazing guys!And I really want to thank Vicky, who has stood by me through every thing!It feels like I've known her all my life,and I really want to thank God for her, and for other true friends,some also, best friends,you all know who you are =)
Anyway guys I want to encourage anyone that's stuck in a two-way road...where things also seem to be going a bit wacko hehe...to just close your eyes,alone in a room,and just ask God to take control over your life and extend your territory =) always here if someone needs to chat OK?
I have a poem to show you guys, if any one's still alive out there hehe...but I'll post it tomorrow!And guys I truly ask you as my brothers and sisters in Christ to keep me in your prayers please...I kinda need it...I don't wanna hide my bad times from you guys,cos if i hide them from you,then whats d point?Friends are supposed to sharpen each other!
Sorry if i bored you guys....God Bless you all!!! =) XxX

Eric Clapton sings this song, for his son who died cos he fell out of a window,I sung this for a show once,and ekk i thought of it haha its beautiful ah!

Slum Survivor and Y4J Lenten Talks

2008-02-16T14:09:00.004+01:00

Aaa guys...lets let Malta know about both of these events...dont be shy, let all your contacts on msn know, GOD RULESSSSSSSS :D
God blessss yoouuuuu alllll xxxx

How far will we go?

2008-02-13T16:19:00.008+01:00

So I was flipping channels yesterday, and Jerry was on (i usually hate that program) but it was about plastic surgery, and basically this woman went under the knife 46 times, there isn't something she didn't fix, and she was really beautiful ta!!! Insomma basically at like 30 or sumting she decided she wanted to be the perfect barbie. And she said:
"I didn't care about the cutting and the slicing and the pain and the blood and stitches,I just cared about how I would look in the end, how I look now."
And it clicked...*light bulb* hehe...why do we seem to give up with the first feeling of pain...why do we not have the same attitude? Issa im speaking in general, me included. The second we know ders gna be pain we give up, we dont get back up. We wudnt want to get hurt wud we? but who said dat its gna be easy? We are gna get cut and sliced and bruised...but in the end what will we get?
SALVATION!

So lets have the same attitude, but instead of having that materialistic need, lets have a need for God, a need for love and understanding, a need of a father and encouragment! How far will we go guys?Will we stop at our second "plastic surgery" or maybe the third?fourth?fifth? or will we keep going, even over those 46 brutal failures? Fine maybe we wont get that blonde hair,maybe we wont get rid of those pimples, maybe those cellulite just wont budge, that 6 pack your bstfriend keeps bragging about just never seem to POP out even after those 500 situps every night..and dat saggy stomach fat will just seem to never disappear...but we'll get sumting we desperately need,sumting u cant buy...Eternal Life with the one and only..GOD =)

I know this is long...and sorry but I have to mention something else, so then there was this guy who was amazed at this fake barbie doll's beauty, so he went under the knife himself to be another Barbie doll...yes he became a blonde woman...and so basically if we do evrything we can to reflect God's love for us to others, through our actions and words, then people will want what we have...people will point and say: Dont u think ders sumting mysterious bout dat girl?Dont u think dat guy has sumting different?

So I challenge you all..to go out there..with those knives nd pipes and injections coming at you, but to keep going until the time comes, when everything will be sooo worth it!!!!! God Bless =)
Praying for you all X

This Video Shows us that tere's someone to hold on to no matter what!This is my fave band...i love them!!!!!! =) Enjoy!!

Lenten Talks

2008-02-12T19:39:00.000+01:00

Short post today...basically im rly sick, and i hv my chem mock on thurs nd i can hardly study with the random migraines.But Gods being faithful,as always,but im trying not to take His love for granted (one of my lent sacrifices)so evry little small thing is a big thing for me.Pls keep ppl in the mime and dance and viks poetry and the Y4J band and youth team and any1 helping in lenten talks in your prayers pls.Lenten talks r close!
They're running from the 25th Feb to the 1st March at 8-9 pm at the St.Julians Parish.Its rly worth coming guys!Im personally rly looking forward to dem. See you for now...also cud u pls keep me in your prayers,just a little one,not gng through the best time,but aa im praising God,cos He deserves all praise...
Keep praying, God Bless X
Take care all of you!dont ever give up!
*I would post a picture of the lenten talk poster,but its too big nd it came all green,so make it a point to come nd see it at the lenten talks xD And visit www.y4jmalta.com... new website 2moro what fun!*

A Thankful Day!

2008-02-07T00:09:00.000+01:00

So guys today was the beginning of 3 weeks of mocks xD But i'm praising God for them..but I also got into a bit of trouble at school, quite worrying at first, but now I realised that it's ok!!! Its not like i purposely did something wrong, something just backfired!I've learnt something out of it and that's what's most important hux =) But Thanks for caring everyone,esp my trouble buddies; Vik,Sara nd Sof xD Ajma I got messages nd calls to see if evrytings ok..I felt really loved!but not as much as God loves me! anyone whose reading this just stop doing anything else and for a minute just TRY and imagine how much God loves you...just try!we hv nooo idea!HE LOVES US SOOO MUCH!Yes guys im in an I'm-in-love-with-jesus-mood...as always, but im hyper so it shows more =P Too bad no ones awake to be in love-with-Jesus-mood with me!hehe
So even though I had a rough afternoon,I got home nd just knelt down nd let everything out to my daddy King, and I praised Him for it!So praise guys...praise Him for your parents fighting atm, praise Him for the fight ure hving with your bestfriend,praise Him for the rumour you found out was gng round about you, for your nanna going to hospital, for your pet dying...just Praise Him cos He deserves alll praise!

Psalm 105:2 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.

Ok now the point of my blog today is to show you God's amazingness...ok so im a fan of beautiful views, im the kind of person dat just stares in delight at a sunrise or at a colourful sky or at an orange moon..im just amazed by God's perfect creation, and what brought this on today?My dads pictures! Enjoy =)

Gorgeous aye?!

Mela this is a video our school priest told us about in mass...turn your speakers on guys!its adorable!
God Bless XxX

Update =)

2008-02-04T13:43:00.000+01:00

Hey guys!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but my computer broke down and I hate my sisters laptop but anyway now i have a lot to say =P

First of all,my dads back safe and sound! After a very hectic and delayed trip from Turkey! Thank you all for your prayers
and messages =D

So something connected to my dads trip, but also to everyones promises with God...so before my dad had left, i was realllly worried, and when I was praying God had promised me that he would bring my dad back safe and sound...nd so i was encouraged, but as the days passed and the forzi armati were involved in the situation and i had no idea where my dad was..i started to doubt whether He would keep His promise!But a close friend of mine gave me a random small piece of paper after the meeting on Sat which said: God Keeps His Promises. Now no one knew about my promise thing so when i read it, i started screaming hehe and what do you know...a few hours later, I was in my daddy's arms xD So praise the Lord :D

Just in case you can't read what's written; God Keeps His Promises...His Every Word is True.He Is Always Faithful, And He Loves You. =)

Next topic =P...
Achies Bday =)

So some of us went to Achie's on Friday (Thanks Ach) and we had a really good time, great company, amazing food..everything was just great...except for the van coming 45 minutes late =P So we ended up walking in Mellieha at midnightish,wondering if the van got lost xD So at one point we were waiting at a corner and I just randomly said: Lets pray! So we joined hands in one big circle and prayed!It was really cute guys, I wish we had a camera!I can just imagine God looking down nd smiling at us!Aww so then thank God, the van finally arrived and he kindly explained why he was late, and in a few minutes we were back at luxol =D Funny night!It was robs bday too...so happy belated birthday both of u =)

Blood xD
So last night i woke up thinking I had a runny nose and when I placed a tissue to my nose I realised it was blood =O I was half asleep and I couldn't understand what was happening!It was a nose bleed!A really random one xD And don't ask why, but when it continously kept bleeding I thought of Jesus bleeding...He first started bleeding when they beat him up, but it didn't stop there...it kept going...they whipped him and pushed him and put the crown of thorns on his head until they eventually crucified him..so basically the blood kept coming out!And even in a nose bleed I felt peace...even though it's NOTHING compared to what Jesus went through, I just thought of it as a wake up call..."AMY URE GNA KEEP BLEEDING FOR NOW DONT WORRY" So hekk i felt like everything was in conrol even if I had blood dripping...He knows what he's doing =) I'm really random aye xD So guys dont worry we're gonna keep bleeding for now, but then it's gna stop...and that's a promise from God :D You're going to have a safe landing in the end...it's all so worth it!

I have more to say, but I don't wanna bore you all with one post!hehe
God Bless You All xXx

Jesus' Love =)

2008-01-28T14:09:00.000+01:00

Hey butterflies xD

So today was a bit confusing at first then as i drifted off in prayer, (during physics =P) I felt God put something on my heart and i just needed to tell all of you =)
So I dont know if you guys ever had those days where it seems like people are in the mood of insulting you, or joking meanily, or just plainly being mean to you!And the second ure alone, a tear rolls down your cheek and then you wipe it away nd keep getting on with your life, trying your best to stay positive, to be a light unto others..to keep dat smile going! Well today was one of those days!Starting from home all the way through a school day, nd back at home..well i felt really unsure of myself! I'm really trying my best to be a realllly good example to others around me, but people seem to just want you to lose your temper!But getting angry isn't the way to deal with these days!So I decided to pray and see what God thinks!I mean I really want to look at those people who have hurt me,even in the past, with love, and God pointed out most of the times where people put Jesus down! When they criticised him and tried tricking him!They wanted to get rid of him so badly,that they plotted to kill him:

Matthew 26
The Plot Against Jesus 1When Jesus had finished saying all these things, he said to his disciples, 2"As you know, the Passover is two days away—and the Son of Man will be handed over to be crucified."
3Then the chief priests and the elders of the people assembled in the palace of the high priest, whose name was Caiaphas, 4and they plotted to arrest Jesus in some sly way and kill him. 5"But not during the Feast," they said, "or there may be a riot among the people."

And I was like How sweeettt....even though I've always known dat Jesus knows wat we're gng through, today i actually felt it! My brother xD totally gets my mixed feelings atm!And he kept going, he didn't let anything get to him, he kept his chin up and continued to teach the word of God, and when he was put down, even at the very end by satan...he went on!So i was reallly encouraged!I have to be ready for anything, I want to be ready to be killed, if it means giving glory to God! So even though those tears have rolled down my cheek today, I praise God for this day, and I thank Him for everything dat happened =D Ohh the lovely positiveness! So guys any discouragment you're getting, or insults or whatever may be putting you down, just remember this:

2Corinthians 12: 9-10
he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong

What bout dat huh?now isnt dat just beautiful!!!!! xD
This video is from the film Facing The Giants dat rob mentioned in his blog..it shows exactly what im talking bout!Enjoy =) God Bless You!

Why The Worrying?

2008-01-27T12:44:00.000+01:00

Hey Little Ones!

So basically my dad called yesterday saying he had to spend another week in greece cause there was a storm and they wouldnt manage to sail safely!I panicked a bit..another week without my dad!But today i woke up thinking really positively. I mean why stay worrying, they should wait until the time is right, no problem at all!And maybe at the same time get some proper rest and some proper food!So this got me thinking to our everyday problems xD When something props up some of us really panic and worry and want to find a way out of it straight away! But when the time is right God will find a way out for us!God is in control, so have patience!

"The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride." Ecclesiastes 7:8

So instead of worrying, why not use that time to pray about it? I know some of you are saying, its so norml for me to worry,and I know what u mean, cos I'm a worry person too, and any of my bestfriends can tell you that too! But I'm going to try!And my trying and failing post will have to come another time hehe xD And just like my dads gna gain some rest, we're gna get closer to God,cos automatically u start praying more...so go for it guys! xD
So basically that's all I have to say..so all of you out there, stop bein depressed nd scared and worried, but give it all to God, let Him take control and when you've experienced and learnt enough, then your "problem" will start to go away..and the rain will stop xD But first it has to rain cats and dogs before the rainbow appears...but it will, so have faith =)
I know what I'm saying, cause I've just been through something very similar...so dont worry, seriously xD

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

"22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes."Luke 12

Convinced yet? I made this video because this song is perfect with this post! Enjoy! God Bless You All =) X

Lifetime Job xD

2008-01-26T14:04:00.000+01:00

Hey guys!
Sorry for not posting yest, but i had a long day! I'm glad to tell you all that the mime at school went great!The Archbishop really appreciated it! =) Ok so let me tell you what happened...in the morning a good friend of mine, who was acting as Christ in this mime came to school really confused cause she had been sick for two days before and didn't know her part very well..and her exact words were: " I might forget to act like Christ" And it really touched me..I don't know if anyone else is feeling it too =P But hekk we all forgetfully or purposely don't act like Christ...and what im trying to say is that being like Christ shouldn't be sumting we forget to be...but sumting dat comes naturally, our reactions for example!I mean me, myself can say sumting rude as a reaction and todays gng to be the end of that xD But that's what I mean, no matter what, forgetting to be like Christ shouldn't even be in our vocabulary =P Most of us want to get summer jobs this summer...so why not try out a lifetime job?But dat pays so much more...not in wealth, but in a lifetime in His Kingdom =D Ejja guys start from today...we're all employed to do this, so let's do it well...and people might want to try out your job =)
Good luck..God Bless X

Nature Speaks xD

2008-01-24T15:14:00.000+01:00

Hello humans!
Stormy day don't you think? hehe =P
So on the way to school this morning, since I pass from the front, i had a pretty clear view of the sea xD and all I could think about was my dad...and how I won't be able to reach him for 2 WHOLE DAYS!And I had a thoughtful moment...thinking about rain and God and problems and storms and rainbows!So I came up with a few conclusions hehe here we goo..

First one is about the rain! So I'm not such a rain person...but today I kind of changed my mind! Think about it, when its raining we all stay inside and find shelter from the rain,some of us wouldn't even dare getting wet! Umbrellas are all that's seen and people running like idiots xD
buttt...I thought about it this way...we all get scared at one point, of giving our lives fully to god..there's always that something pulling us back, right? We wouldn't want to get wet...
" My friends would tease me"
" I wouldn't be able to have fun in pv"
"My boyfriend isn't into this stuff"
"Then I would have to go to mass...no wayy"
"Praying, reading the bible?? not my thing..people would think I'm a freak!"

Well you get my point...I've gone through some of those, and I realised that giving your life to God is just like going out into the rain, with no umbrella...you're going to get wet, but that just comes with the package!It's being brave, no matter what..just stepping up and going for it!You're going to be filled with God's love and He's going to be so proud of you (as always)...so don't stay inside, meaning don't fear problems and what people would think of you...think of what God would say =)

And then comes the storm...

"Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress.
He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed.
They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven."
[Psalm 107: 28-30]

I am now confident that my dad is going to be safe! God is above everything...And besides that, God's going to get us out of this storm, whatever you're going through, when the time is right, He just has to whisper, and the waves will hush!
Isn't it amazing? Isn't God just the best?! Faith is all you need...=)

Jesus Calms the Storm
23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. 24Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"
26He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
27The men were amazed and asked, "What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"
[Matthew 8:22-27] So, you see...Keep your chin up =D

Theres always a rainbow soon after...

Well basically all I want to say is that after the suffering comes the rainbow...something good always comes out of a bad situation!And I'm telling the truth! Through experience, I know that there's a reason for everything...and that reason is just like the pretty colourful rainbow in my pic =) So keep going gys, no matter what, keep that rainbow in mind and you'll go far, always with God's help! Remember: nothing is impossible with God...he makes the impossible possible xD

Ok that's about it today...sorry if I repeated stuff, but I really wanted to make a point!So here's a video I was watching today xD It's all about how God is above everything! UNDEFEATABLE =D

God Bless you all...

P.S: Please pray for the mime thats happening at school 2moro..and also for the Y4J mime...and for my dad..and robs nanna...others are private =P
Enjoy!!! X

Sticking Together!

2008-01-23T22:12:00.000+01:00

Hey again =)

Something small, just a video from high school musical, and I actually found a really sweet messge in this, watch it all you CHRISTIANS and read the lyrics if you can't understand it! There's actually a christian message in it...just use your brains hehe...Let's stick together guys! xD

Lyrics: http://www.links2love.com/all-in-this-together.htm

Obedience,courage or love?

2008-01-23T18:05:00.001+01:00

Hey guys...

So lately I've been reading about obedience in the Bible...and it's been on my mind, and Jesus dying for us must have taken a really lot of obedience, i mean he could have chickened out..but he didn't cause he loved his father so much that he obeyed his request and kept praying for courage...so I encourage you to try be as obedient as possible, but that comes with love...how can you be completely obedient to someone you don't love? Rhetorical question =) Think bout it!So that explains the picture...now for todays thought...xD

So today i was thinking...you know how God puts something on your heart sometimes, and you know that if He wants you to do it, then you should. And you go for it, full of courage...then things start to go wrong and this thing isn't working out, and you start to worry and panic...and you start to think; God, what's happening? How I can i do this if things don't work out? Well it's happening to me at the moment! And its really worrying me, and today I just went in the bathroom and prayed (this was at skul lol) and then I felt this amazing peace...and I felt Him tell me that if I agreed to obey Him,to do what's in store for me, then whatever happens, in the end its going to work out, no matter how long it takes or how people react...or in my case don't react at all! I was really encouraged and I mean it's true...it won't be much of a challenge if everything goes smoothly..some rough patches are meant to be there! So I decided to encourage all of you, that are doing something for the glory of God and are finding it hard to cope, because some people are giving you trouble, or for any other reason! Go for it! God loves obedience,

2 John 1:6 "And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love."

Romans 5:19 "For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous."

He WON'T leave you hanging...I promise! Keep praying, He wants you to tell Him how things are going, even if He already knows, but He likes to hear your voice =) I hope I made sense guys...

Deuteronomy 31:6 (New International Version)

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
God Bless You All! xXx

Shine to the World!

2008-01-22T22:36:00.000+01:00

This is a special message for Mr.Blog...my special friend =) hehe...im showing you to the world in a few minutes! So Good Luck!Hope all my messages get through to whoever reads them!And my stories make them smile hehe...Ah yes cos besides the regular blogs, i decided to start updating my story here too xD Enjoy everyone xXx
God Bless You All!

Dream Date =)

2008-01-22T18:04:00.000+01:00

So I wrote this on Y4J forum as a dream date...some people seemed to like it and I decided to copy it on my blog :) Enjoy hehe xx

Imagine green fields all around you, the sun shining but its not hot, no clouds in the sky, all you can hear are birds in the trees!you're both dressed rly sweetly...maybe the girl a pretty dress with a ribbon in her hair and d guy jeans, a shirt opened at the top-half tucked out from his jeans, with a belt!TROUSERS NOT SO LOW...lol...you're off for a picnic, and you're walking,holding hands..just talking!...he tells you to stop and sit down nd he lays a blanket down (remember imagine green fields-NEVER ending lol) u both sit opposite eachother, relaxed.he pours some of your favourite drink in a glass nd you drink and giggle while watching him about to drop his glass.you both end up laughing when he does and u move closer to pick it up for him, and suddenly there it is, u look up, nd his lips r right there, but u decide to tease him and move away with a cheeky smile on your face. but u decide to stay where u are, close to him.then he brings out some strawberries and chocolate!how did he know dat you loved them?...it makes u think,he rly must hv put some work in this.so it makes your face shine nd he stops and stares at you..you ask y hes staring..and all he says...' Theres true beauty right in front of me' and places his head to the side...your hearts beating faster than ever.could this be a dream?he places his hand on your head nd moves your hair away from your face and says: 'I love you' (this obv isnt your first date unless uve known eachother for ages b4) you dont know wat to say...you love him, but u just cant say the words...he looks disappointed and tries to change the subject by getting a fork and picking up a strawberry...while the chocolate slowly drips...u whisper...i love you more than you'll ever know.guy: what was dat? you: 'i love you more than ull ever know' louder this time...he smiles nd places the strawbery in his mouth, he decides to feed you one too and when he does,some chocolate wiped off on the side of your mouth...he moves forward to wipe it, and once again, theres THE moment..this time u dont want to tease him but u just look at eachother with such passion and love...the kiss happens and its the most beautiful kiss u cud ever imagine!u feel like ure on top of the world..ure both so happy and u contiue eating away at your strawberries, talking casually!you see sumting near a tree nd walk over there to see what it was...a squirrel mr.guy comes from behind you and wraps his arms around you and for a second ure frightened then you can feel him breathing on you and for that second, you know you're safe..evryting else is forgotten..you're ok!he carries you on his back, back to where u were b4...and u both decide to start packing up...when he drives you home (or watever) he reminds you dat dis day has been d most amazing day he's ever had with the most amazing girl he's ever met...you say the same thing..and you plan to meet once again the following day...THE END!!

Flying Saucers!

2008-01-22T15:20:00.000+01:00

Ok so you're probably wondering why on earth are there photos of flying saucers on my blog?! I'll come to it xD Btw the second photo shows the example I'm about to give about God's word and flying saucers...so here it goes... me and my madness!

Ok...ever thought about how we all give more importance to the outward appearance than to the character of a person? ME included that is.
ok so I'm a fan of flying saucers...I love them!And well when I'm sharing a packet of flying saucers I'll be like: OOO THE PINK ONE!! or NOO THE GREEN ONE I WANT! You know how picky we are sometimes...and insomma i was eating them yest just after i prayed and it kind of came to me that the colour of the flying saucer is just like the outward appearance of a person...if dey dont hv a pretty colour then we dont want them,same goes with us; if she's not a size 10 then we dont want her...or if she's not pretty then I dont want her..and for us girls: If he's not cute enough then we don't want him...or if he's not sexy enough we don't want to be seen with him!!!??!!but have we ever thought about the inside?Not only about what our friends will think when they see you with the guy they were gossiping about a few days ago? I hope I'm not being confusing!
You need to be happy with the person, not your friends!For all you know their 'oh so hot' boyfriend/girlfriend could be some abusive guy/bitchy snob!Please excuse my language...So then i get to the good part....the sugar inside the flying saucers!!Ahhh my favourite part...everyone looks forward to that. I mean whats a flying saucer without the sugar? Same goes as whats a person without a nice character? get the similarity? So fellow friends...lets stop being of this world cos we're not!So what if that girl/guy has pimples?..we're at that age...and so what if she has a big 'behind'? Dare to be different...=) Keep a flying saucer in mind hehe
God Bless You xXx

2008-01-22T14:54:00.000+01:00

Enjoy guys xD (Thanks Ben for telling me how!)

Beautiful Or Not?

2008-01-21T20:15:00.000+01:00

Hey...

So today I'm feeling a bit un-princessed!You know how theres dat voice inside which just loves to ruin your day? I was having a good one until Tommy (bett and I decided to call the mean voice inside,Tommy) started going on and on how I'm supposed to look like someone else...but I'm me!I'm Amy-Anne Sargent and i really want to just be me!No one can take that away from me.Why wont I accept this? I know it, i just want it to sink in and let it work in my life. I want to let God work in my life more, I want to fully love myself. I shouldn't punish myself when i snack on chocolate or eat 2 meals in a day! I want to be free! And the only way it can happen, is if i answer the question: Beautiful Or Not? God thinks so, and He's all dat counts, so with God, I believe it...now I want to believe it when I'm around my friends!I want to be able to just get out of the house make-up less and not worry!And it hurts when my friends encourage me on this, and I just cant fully believe them!I dont want them to think that i dont WANT to believe them, but i just cant! I'm offering this up to God...please take this burden off my back! Stop me from thinking about calories and figures and weight, but more about you nd how much im in love with you Lord!

Please keep me in your prayers guys (the 3 ppl dat know bout this blog haha)
Love Amy xXx

This video really stands for all the girls that feel like they should be someone they're not...Will be uploaded soon!

First Ever Secret Blog!

2008-01-21T15:22:00.000+01:00

Hello Mr.Blog =)
This is my first time ever blogging!I decided to blog secretly, and then maybe in time, show it to someone...Hmmm
So basically today was really boring!I'm sick with the flu or something like that hehe and so stayed home and slept all morning! Even though someone kept messaging, so I kept waking up every time it vibrated...but Its ok cos i enjoy speaking to this person =) (one of my bestfriends)
And i had the weirdest dream!I had a random party,with people i dont know and then we played hide and seek and i lost!and then teddy bears attacked me!Crazy dream!
Soo basically I'm a bit worried, my dad left for Turkey early this morning (2 a.m) and he's going to sail a boat back to Malta!And in January seas, its not the safest thing to do, so this week he's going to be on my mind..so Mr.Blog would u please pray for him? teehee =P Even though I gave him a Cross to hold on to, a bookmark with a sweet christian message on it, and a card saying: Jesus I will Trust in You =D I should feel more confident now,and I also prayed with him at the airport!What more can I do? =P
Spiritually, things are going well! I've managed to stop a couple of habits, all thanks to the one and only..God xD Just one left...I have faith that it's going to go away when it's meant to, im sure i still hv to learn something from it!! I just know that whatever happens, its for the best!His timing is not like our timing..we must be patient and wait =) It's fun wondering when that day will come when that something we've been praying for will happen...it's cool!in the meantime I'm going to keep praying!I'm going to hang on...definitely!
I've got mocks on the 6th February! But I'm tooooo Blessed to be stressed!i haven't studied everything yet, but im staying calm!

"Whatever you do,whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." (Col 3 :17)

Its whats been getting me through =)

The picture on the top right, is beautiful..I love views, they remind me of God's perfection!
Im off for now..God Bless
Amy =)